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Posted by partlycloudy on January 6, 2005, at 12:47:25
In reply to partlycloudy, AuntieMel, alexandra k -- Thanks..., posted by marjorie on January 6, 2005, at 9:03:50
> Since that one time, I've been okay again. Circumstances will prevent me from being tempted to drink tonight, so tomorrow will be my new Day 3. Unfortunately, it will also be the start of the weekend, so that will be hard for me, since that's when I always really want to drink. I would be interested in any tips or advice any of you could share with me that help you get through the weekends (or whatever your trickiest times are).
I have usually planned my drinking for when I get home from work - which route to drive home that will take me past a store, where to put the bag, the whole routine. And when I get in the front door, the first priority is to get the supplies stashed and a glass filled and disguised if needed. My therapist suggested I disrupt my routine by driving home along a inconvenient route; and when I got home to change the routine there, too. So I try to do something different - like a household chore - to get me out of the behavioural pattern. The first time I did this I was a nervous wreck. My hands shook for about an hour after I got home. But it worked. I washed the kitchen floor, then got changed, lit a nice candle, put my favourite music on the stereo, and sat down with a magazine. It really works.
I'm so touched by your post, Marjorie; and I know that all the other babblers here wish you success in this difficult task.
partlycloudy
Posted by AuntieMel on January 7, 2005, at 10:21:40
In reply to partlycloudy, AuntieMel, alexandra k -- Thanks..., posted by marjorie on January 6, 2005, at 9:03:50
Dr. Phil (yea, I know, but this bit of advice made sense) says that you never get rid of a bad habit. You replace it with a better habit.
So, when the urge hits - don't just gut through it. Do something else, preferably something that requires some physical activity. Take a walk, garden, scrub the grout with a toothbrush (my personal favorite) - anything that gets you moving and is useful. Replace bad feelings (I'm just a useless drunk) with good ones (my that floor looks great)
Keep in mind, though, that a key trait of alkies is dishonesty - and a key to recovery is honesty. This doesn't mean that you have tell the world, but hiding it from your husband really only makes you feel worse - which can sabotage the whole thing. And the kids? Trust me, unless they are very, very young (under 2 or 3) they know something is wrong - they just may not have put a name to it.
Since you are so good at (aren't we all??) subterfuge, use those skills to hide an AA blue book. Instead of sneaking a drink, sneak a read. The first 5 chapters, over and over.
Ok, nagging is over. Enjoy the weekend. I'll try to check in from time to time.
Posted by marjorie on January 8, 2005, at 2:48:52
In reply to Re: tips for getting through the weekend., posted by AuntieMel on January 7, 2005, at 10:21:40
AuntieMel - You're right about staying busy when the cravings strike. That worked for me to take my mind off eating when I was losing weight after my pregnancy. It's a little tougher with this though, but it's definitely good advice.
I guess I didn't clarify my "dishonesty" regarding my family clearly enough. My husband and I have talked about this, and he is definitely aware that I am trying to stop drinking. I recognize that you are right about the drinking problems revolving around dishonesty and the recovery being dependent upon honesty, which is why I am determined to be completely honest with what I post here. So in the spirit of honesty, I must say that while my husband is aware that I am trying to stop drinking, he does not know everything, such as how bad the problem had gotten. That said though, he is supportive of my efforts and would not intentionally do anything to undermine me. He himself does not intend to stop drinking, which is fine with me, because he doesn't have a problem. I believe that he would stop if I asked him to, but I'm not going to. And I only have one child who is still a baby, so my immediate family is not being kept in the dark about what I am doing now. I was referring more to my extended family (all of whom live nearby and spend a lot of time with us) that I don't intend to share my struggle with at this time.
I am not familiar with the AA blue book. I would be interested in reading it. Where does one acquire one?
Thanks again for your advice and for checking in.
Posted by partlycloudy on January 8, 2005, at 5:05:16
In reply to Re: tips for getting through the weekend., posted by marjorie on January 8, 2005, at 2:48:52
> I am not familiar with the AA blue book. I would be interested in reading it. Where does one acquire one?
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When I went to a local AA meeting last month, I was extremely upset , crying, and could not look anyone in the eye without falling apart again. At the end of the meeting I was given a blue book and a list of women member's first names and phone numbers to call if I needed to. They had quietly passed this piece of paper around the room during the meeting. The book is available for purchase at most meetings (in my case some folks bought it for me).I think you can buy it on the AA website, too.
Posted by AuntieMel on January 8, 2005, at 21:04:33
In reply to Re: tips for getting through the weekend., posted by marjorie on January 8, 2005, at 2:48:52
Well, there is sure no reason to tell the extended family. My mother-in-law still doesn't know about my problem, or my depression, or my hospital stay, or my four months medical leave. And I don't see any reason to tell her either.
I didn't ask my hubby to quit either, but I can sure tell you that for the first few months it is probably necessary for you to have none at all in the house. Why purposely invite temptation?
Posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 11:57:22
In reply to Re: tips for getting through the weekend., posted by AuntieMel on January 8, 2005, at 21:04:33
Hi all,
I'm new to this whole forum thing so if I'm not doing something right please let me know. I've been reading your postings and seeing so much of myself in all of you--I just wanted to let you know how the honesty and vulnerability in your postings have helped me today. I've been abusing alcohol most of my adult life (over 20 years now), have tried to stop before unsuccessfully, and am now in day 9 of latest (and hopefully last) attempt. The first few days were really hard, and even now I'm feeling like garbage physically but (gratefully) still managing to stay sober.
One day at a time, yes? Thanks to you all for helping me through this one day :)
Posted by partlycloudy on January 13, 2005, at 12:01:13
In reply to Trying again, posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 11:57:22
Welcome, Lee. Feel free to share and wine - darn it! I mean WHINE - with the rest of us.
partlycloudy of the bad pun
Posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 12:42:30
In reply to Re: Trying again » Lee05, posted by partlycloudy on January 13, 2005, at 12:01:13
> Welcome, Lee. Feel free to share and wine - darn it! I mean WHINE - with the rest of us.
> partlycloudy of the bad pun
Thanks for the welcome. As I said, not my first attempt at sobriety, but definitely my first attempt at reaching out for any kind of support with it. Always tried to do it on my own before because I was so embarassed. So thanks again--very much appreciated.Lee
Posted by antigua on January 13, 2005, at 14:02:04
In reply to Trying again, posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 11:57:22
I second partlycloudy's welcome...
Talk to us. We are good listeners.
What's different this time?
antigua
Posted by AuntieMel on January 13, 2005, at 14:18:13
In reply to Re: Trying again, posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 12:42:30
i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can,
I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can,
I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN,
I KNOW I CAN.
Go, choo choo, GO
So what is there to be embarassed about? That you're not perfect? That you're a pickle? Can that possible compare to the embarrasment of being a drunken jerk?
Have you seen "28 Days" - a humorous (hysterical in my book) look at getting clean - and how to ask for help.
Posted by Lee05 on January 13, 2005, at 15:34:07
In reply to Ok, little choo choo » Lee05, posted by AuntieMel on January 13, 2005, at 14:18:13
> i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can, i think i can,
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> I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can, I Think I Can,
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> I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN,
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> I KNOW I CAN.
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> Go, choo choo, GO
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> So what is there to be embarassed about? That you're not perfect? That you're a pickle? Can that possible compare to the embarrasment of being a drunken jerk?
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> Have you seen "28 Days" - a humorous (hysterical in my book) look at getting clean - and how to ask for help.
I'm embarassed because I spent a good portion of my life judging my dad for not being able to lick this disease--and look at me now. Talk about karma.Antigua, the only thing that's different this time is that I've stopped calling this "a bit of a problem with alcohol" and for the first time said out loud that I'm an alcoholic and I need help to stop. That was to my boyfriend--I figured he'd either be supportive or leave (he didn't leave, bless him).
And then there's you guys--in one afternoon, you've already made me feel like it's OK to talk about it. I'm know I don't have to tell any of you how good that feels.
Yes, I did see 28 days--I loved it. I think I might just go rent it again.
Thanks much,
Lee
Posted by partlycloudy on January 13, 2005, at 16:35:15
In reply to Ok, little choo choo » Lee05, posted by AuntieMel on January 13, 2005, at 14:18:13
> So what is there to be embarassed about? That you're not perfect? That you're a pickle?
I always said that my dad worked on the embalming bit before he died. OMG, that is gross - but it's true! He was swilling beer when he was in the hospital, dying.
Posted by Lee05 on January 15, 2005, at 13:38:08
In reply to Ok, little choo choo » Lee05, posted by AuntieMel on January 13, 2005, at 14:18:13
I was looking into AA meetings (I found a couple in my neighbourhood that I could go to) and would be interested in hearing your opinions on the meetings. Have you found them helpful or not so much--any advice?
Thanks,
Lee
Posted by Lee05 on January 15, 2005, at 14:11:52
In reply to Re: tips for getting through the weekend., posted by AuntieMel on January 8, 2005, at 21:04:33
Also wanted to put another question out there if I could. I'm having a particularly hard time today with dizziness, legs feeling like rubber (had to hang onto the wall in the shower just now). This is day 11 sober for me, so I question whether this has anything to do with alcohol withdrawal--has anyone had a.w. symptoms last this far out? I guess there's always a chance it could just be a flu bug or something--I'm just overly sensitive to anything weird happening in my body these days :)
Thx in advance for the help!
Lee
Posted by partlycloudy on January 16, 2005, at 7:25:31
In reply to Opinions on AA?, posted by Lee05 on January 15, 2005, at 13:38:08
It's a place that makes me cry because I see myself in each and every person in the room.
It's a place that frightens me because I don't think I know how to place my trust in that Higher Power.
It's a place that I am grateful will welcome me back as many times as it takes.
It's a place that disgusts me when I see fragile and vulnerable people be victimized by those who come to the meetings for the wrong reasons.
Every single meeting is different from one at another location.
Posted by Lee05 on January 16, 2005, at 9:03:26
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by partlycloudy on January 16, 2005, at 7:25:31
Partlycloudy,
Thanks so much--I've decided to go to both of the meetings in my neighbourhood this week--one on Monday and the other on Thursday. I'm a little nervous, but I figure I need all the help I can get if I'm going to make it work this time. Maybe it'll help me take the focus of myself for a while and turn it to other people--I've noticed myself becoming somewhat self-absorbed over the past 12 days.
I'll let you know how it goes--thanks again.
Lee
Posted by jujube on January 16, 2005, at 17:32:25
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA?, posted by Lee05 on January 16, 2005, at 9:03:26
For me, AA was a refuge at a time in my life when I felt alone and adrift with my alcoholism. It is nerve-wracking at first, there is no doubt about it. But, what I found at the meetings I went to was a community that would accept me, warts and all, and people who had been through what I had been going through and were still alive to talk about it. And, as weird as this may sound, I felt a huge sense relief and a lifting of a tremendous burden the first time I said out loud in front of a room full of people "My name is Tamara, and I am an alcoholic". That was over 8 1/2 years ago (after a few previously failed attempts), and I haven't looked back. All that to say that going to AA meetings early in my sobriety saved me when I couldn't save myself (and wasn't sure that I wanted to).
Good luck to you! And, remember, one day at a time.
> Partlycloudy,
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> Thanks so much--I've decided to go to both of the meetings in my neighbourhood this week--one on Monday and the other on Thursday. I'm a little nervous, but I figure I need all the help I can get if I'm going to make it work this time. Maybe it'll help me take the focus of myself for a while and turn it to other people--I've noticed myself becoming somewhat self-absorbed over the past 12 days.
>
> I'll let you know how it goes--thanks again.
>
> Lee
Posted by Lee05 on January 17, 2005, at 9:01:47
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by jujube on January 16, 2005, at 17:32:25
Thanks to you too Jujube. It's really great to have all this support in my corner. It blows me away that people I don't even know so genuinely care about my recovery--it feels really good. Thank you!
Have a great day!
Lee
Posted by AuntieMel on January 17, 2005, at 17:26:18
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA?, posted by Lee05 on January 16, 2005, at 9:03:26
You don't have to limit yourself to your neighborhood.
I live in an affluent neighborhood, but I would not feel comfortable going to a meeting here - with all the nearby socialite wannabes.
When I go, it's to a meeting place in a run down center. It's a smoke filled room, full of leather jackets and people that have seen the inside of a prison more than once. There I am accepted for me, and don't feel like I have to impress anyone.
It's great!
Posted by jujube on January 17, 2005, at 22:04:07
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by AuntieMel on January 17, 2005, at 17:26:18
My experience was similar to yours, and I immediately felt at ease with the people who were so welcoming to all newcomers. It made going to meetings so much easier.
Tamara
> You don't have to limit yourself to your neighborhood.
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> I live in an affluent neighborhood, but I would not feel comfortable going to a meeting here - with all the nearby socialite wannabes.
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> When I go, it's to a meeting place in a run down center. It's a smoke filled room, full of leather jackets and people that have seen the inside of a prison more than once. There I am accepted for me, and don't feel like I have to impress anyone.
> It's great!
Posted by Lee05 on January 18, 2005, at 9:12:13
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by AuntieMel on January 17, 2005, at 17:26:18
> You don't have to limit yourself to your neighborhood.
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> I live in an affluent neighborhood, but I would not feel comfortable going to a meeting here - with all the nearby socialite wannabes.
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> When I go, it's to a meeting place in a run down center. It's a smoke filled room, full of leather jackets and people that have seen the inside of a prison more than once. There I am accepted for me, and don't feel like I have to impress anyone.
> It's great!
Well, hell...I'd like to be able to say that I took all your amazing support, screwed up my courage and went to my first meeting last night. Unfortunately, what I have to say instead is that I completely lost my nerve and stayed home (it's amazing the number of really believable excuses I came up with for myself too).That's the bad news--the good news is that I'm still sober (14 days) and I'll keep trying with the meetings. In the meantime, I'm really glad you guys are out there--thx.
Lee
Posted by AuntieMel on January 18, 2005, at 10:10:21
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA?, posted by Lee05 on January 18, 2005, at 9:12:13
Do you have a trusted friend or relative? Not all the meetings are alkies only. If they are listed in the schedule as "open" you can take a friend with you.
I'm a social phobic when sober and I don't know if I'd have ever gone to one alone at first.
If you raise your hand for a desire chip, you will be amazed at how many people come up to you and offer to help. One of the twelve steps of AA is to help people more in need. Not as an altruistic thing, per se, but as a tool in keeping sober yourself.
Posted by jujube on January 18, 2005, at 12:54:49
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA?, posted by Lee05 on January 18, 2005, at 9:12:13
If you are finding it too stressful to go alone to a meeting, why don't you do what I did which was to look up AA in the phone book, call the mainline which is staffed by AA volunteers and tell them that you are seeking sobriety. They will send someone to your home to pick you up and escort you to a meeting or two and help you feel a little bit more comfortable during your introduction to AA and some of its members. Like you, I would have found it difficult and unnerving to go to my first meeting alone.
Tamara
Posted by just so sad on January 20, 2005, at 10:36:30
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by jujube on January 18, 2005, at 12:54:49
Well, this is my first post to this board. I just signed up yesterday, and posted on the social board. I started effexor 37.5 mg for depression about 10 days ago, and was wondering if there were any others like me, who were self-medicating with alcohol. It was recommended I visit this board, and boy, what relief to find you! I admire those of you who have quit for days at a time. I go one or two, max, then all my resolve is gone. I have started with an addictions counsellor/group awareness series, but part of me still can't believe I have a problem and that with a little more willpower and less depression I wouldn't need my daily fix (or bottle) of wine. I have cut down tremendously as now I'm on the effexor it's a bad mix, but haven't gone 3 days sober yet. Thanks for sharing everyone - you give me hope. PS my immediate family is aware that I am committed to controlling my drinking, and that I may have to quit altogether (aakk!)
Posted by partlycloudy on January 20, 2005, at 10:54:54
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA?, posted by just so sad on January 20, 2005, at 10:36:30
Nice to see you posting here - but you have to work on adopting a new posting name!! (I used to be rainyday, so things do get better :) )
I think the combination of effexor and alcohol is by far the worst I have ever experienced. The hangovers for me lasted days.
Good luck. I wish I had posted here last night when I was feeling low. Sometimes waiting for someone else to start is the worst thing I can do.
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