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Posted by Kel on October 6, 1999, at 20:55:25
I was diagnosed with Major Depression and although I have classic/clinical, I also have a situation at work that I don't understand why I all of the sudden feel this way. (I'll do my best to describe-sometimes I have a hard time expressing what I feel) There is a gal I've worked with for a few years and she has done some things in the past that were uncalled for, but not that horrific. We had a good working relationship and were friends at work. She had her title changed and does project and authoritative attitude. Although I had no problem tolerating her "ego" before, I now absolutely cannot stand anything about her. I find myself wishing bad things happen to her i.e., she would disappear from the face of the earth. I never felt this way about anyone and am usually a forgiving person. I am also finding that I am trying to turn others against her by letting them know about "her other side". I don't understand these feelings, I don't like these feelings and often feel bad for having them.
I feel like I'm going nuts! I always feel that she is trying to undermine me for her own personal gain, I'm very skeptical of her and often question what her intentions are and I am very suspicious. Even though some of my feelings are justified-I feel like this is going too far. Help!
Posted by Dee on October 6, 1999, at 21:40:30
In reply to Is this depression-Does anyone else..., posted by Kel on October 6, 1999, at 20:55:25
I am very familiar with these out-of controll feelings. I'm not sure if this is depression, or if it some behavior that is linked to depression, or if it is something totally different.
I think we are well on our way to getey better with it as we have recognized that there is a problem. I try to be aware of my unreasonable feelings and meke a point of not acting on them. Once I get unstuck with the feeling a little, I often find that I can remove myself from the situation.
I've been working on this for years, and I am getting a little better with it.One of the very hard things for me was the recognition that even if I get better, the situation necessarily doesn't. Sometimes I just find it unfair that *I* must work on my personality problems when other peole can run free with theirs. But the fact is, with the things we are dealing with we cannot afford to be as good as 'normal' people (And I am seriously questioning if there is such thing) we must be better.
We cannot change the world, we can only change ourselves.
Posted by Janice on October 6, 1999, at 22:30:27
In reply to Re: Is this depression-Does anyone else..., posted by Dee on October 6, 1999, at 21:40:30
When I am depressed, everything irritates the hell out of me; especially people who I am not crazy about when I am feeling good. My external world mirrors my internal one. Also, I've noticed that sometimes, when someone drives me NUTS, there are often qualities in that person that are either inside of me (that I don't like) or that I fear are inside of me. Usually I just let myself dislike this person, sometimes passionately and almost obsessively, while knowing my perceptions are really just part of the truth. If I am around someone else with a good imagination, I share my insights with them and we laugh. I'd say you are at least not feeling emotionally well adn very possibly depressed. When I feel good about myself, I feel good about everyone and everything. I still 'have' unpleasant perceptions but they do not affect my sense of well-being, they are just facts. Janice.
Posted by Heidi on October 7, 1999, at 9:12:12
In reply to Kel darling, I don't like her either..., posted by Janice on October 6, 1999, at 22:30:27
A few months ago I finally realized I didn't like the way i had become. I was miserable and negative and cynical and was pushing people away more than I ever had before. Work was totally stressfull and I would regret all the comments I made and feel guilty for the way I was acting. Someone told me that I was "always in a bad mood", I tended to blame my boss for alot of my misery and would say horrible things about her, and then feel totally guilty for everything. That isn't me. I'm usually a fun person with lots of friends and a great disposition. I think that's depression. Or dysthymia. In reality, you might just really not like that person, or you might actually have depression. I had to look long and hard at my symptoms, which I realized were around for much longer than I wanted to admit, but anyways. I went to see my doc and now I'm trying meds. We'll see what happens. I don't know if I'm making any sense at all, but that's my story, hope it helps!
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