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Posted by CynthiaM. on September 8, 2000, at 10:46:46
Ok, folks I know it has been a loooong time since I have posted and I am really needing some good advice. My pdoc has decided on a meds holiday. Everything down for a clearance of one week and then onto lithium , risperdal and / or lamictal. I have taken lithium in the past but was grabbing for the walls ( no equilibrium) but I was also addicted to xanax at the time. Now I am coming down off of Trileptal 2400mg, Gabitril 36mg, remeron 15mg,Carbatrol 2700mgs , cogentin 1mg 2x a day, and off of klonopin all together which I guess I have been majorly od'ing on. (3 mgs 3 - 4 x day) anyway, I guess my problem is that I feel like driving into a brick wall and I am having a hard time holding it together. I am throwing things and swearing and driving toofast and am way too horny... I can say all of these things and I know they are happening to me and yet it still continues and I feel powerless to stop the madness.I am spinning rapidly out of control. I cannot be hospitalized right now because there is so much that requires my attention with my kids and I know it sounds so arrogant but I am truly indespensible. Besides , the nearest funny farm is 6 hours away and that is too far to be away from my family.My husband will be home this weekend so that is better but I have to try and exist like this until I can get on new meds and that will be the 19th ......... anyway, I am just really having a hard time and am feeling so out of control I am fight ing the urge to start cutting again but am having trouble staying home because in the mornings I am alone and it is too easy to fall into the temptation to cut..... I know I am babbling but if anyone can make sense of this could you please give me some ideas? I have no idea what to expect while detoxing from klonopin..... Thanks for listening- CynthiaM
Posted by Chris A. on September 8, 2000, at 13:16:11
In reply to Meds holiday while raging/lklonopinaddiction?, posted by CynthiaM. on September 8, 2000, at 10:46:46
Dear Cindy,
It's good to hear from you, but sorry you're in such a tough spot. I hope you're tapering these meds -especially the Klonopin. In your shoes I would only taper it by .125 mg each dose (a fourth of a .5 mg. tablet). It doesn't sound like a good time to be cutting off all mood stabilizers, antipsychotics and anxiolytics at once! Is there any way you can speak with the doc? It seems like taking one at a time and doing it gradually would make more sense.Blessings,
Chris A.
Posted by CynthiaM. on September 8, 2000, at 13:49:59
In reply to Re: Meds holiday while raging/lklonopinaddiction?, posted by Chris A. on September 8, 2000, at 13:16:11
Hi Chris- good to hear from you! I am doing a "gradual " titration of all of the drugs, Gabitril first then the Trileptal, then so on...cold turkey on the remeron I guess so as not to add to my already manic charged state. and then I guess I am off the klonopin since I don't have any more. I have been through a bottle of 60 since 8/31 and I don't think the pdoc is interested in giving me any more , my son (who has BP) was with me at the time , so I really didn't go into it, still recovering from the shock of even being addicted... It really crept up on me with out the good"buzz" that you can get from xanax, you know? So I guess now I wait to see what they decide, they are supposed tocall me back. I always get worried (paranoid) when things are like this because they start talking hospitalization and then I worry about them thinking I am incapable of caring for my kids....Major paranoias but I guess it isn't paranoia if it is really happening? My 13 year old broke his arm roller-blading and was supposed to have it hard-casted today but the doc that was going to do it had to go to surgeryso we wait until monday and then my mom calls to tell me that my brother(who happens to be gay) and his partner got into a fight and my brother is now in jail so they are going to bail him, and I am really not trying to sound cold but if he got arrested then maybe he needs to spend some time in jail!! He is 41 years old!! Anyway the continuing saga of life as I know it. If you have heard of anythings regarding what to expect when coming off Klonopin let me know. Thanks again- CynthiaM
Posted by Snowie on September 8, 2000, at 21:38:26
In reply to Meds holiday while raging/lklonopinaddiction?, posted by CynthiaM. on September 8, 2000, at 10:46:46
Cynthia,
Klonopin is serious medication, and must be slowly tapered. Here's some info from the manufacturer of the Roche brand Klonopin, which explains why abrupt discontinuation of this drug should be avoided.
http://www.rocheusa.com/products/klonopin/pi.html
Snowie
Posted by michael on September 9, 2000, at 5:50:39
In reply to Re: Meds holiday while raging/lklonopinaddiction? » CynthiaM., posted by Snowie on September 8, 2000, at 21:38:26
Cynthia,
You probably don't know me, I've been mostly a lurker when checking the board lately.... Just wanted to say sounds like you're taking a lot on, and let you know that I know it can't be easy, but that I admire you & your attitude... Sorry I don't have anyting to contribute re: the klonopin...or anything else, for that matter... but fwiw, I'll be thinking of you - Good Luck!
As one of my friends father says "keep your pecker up!" (he's not originally from the US - it's supposed to mean "keep your chin up", but it always gives me a laugh - hope it at least gives you a smile!)... michael
> Cynthia,
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> Klonopin is serious medication, and must be slowly tapered. Here's some info from the manufacturer of the Roche brand Klonopin, which explains why abrupt discontinuation of this drug should be avoided.
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> http://www.rocheusa.com/products/klonopin/pi.html
>
> Snowie
Posted by CynthiaM. on September 10, 2000, at 11:27:24
In reply to Re: Meds holiday while raging/lklonopinaddiction?, posted by michael on September 9, 2000, at 5:50:39
Michael- thanks so much for caring to write. This is the strangest thing I have had to deal with for such a long time. I am making a very strong point to try and stay out of the hospital through this. The closest one we have is 6 hours away! Anyway, I am hoping I will be able to survive the constant roller coaster ride. I am ultra-rapid cycling and not sleeping worth anything... and I am aware that my first concious thought in the a.m. is anger. Not a good way to live. If I had enough money I would just check into a motel and veg until this all blows over , but I cannot sit still while I am in this mode so I have a million different things started that I decided HAD to be done RIGHT now! So I am way too fragmented to even have aclue as to where and what I should be doing . Any idea You may have I would greatly apreciate, and again , thanks so much for the concern.- Cynthia P.S. the "pecker" remark did make me smile. thanks!
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