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Posted by katia on August 29, 2003, at 20:36:51
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami!, posted by fluffy on August 29, 2003, at 16:59:24
Wow, that's pretty impressive that your psychologist friend encouraged you to stop the meds. What was her reasoning?
People really don't understand it. For me, I was at my end and medication was the only thing left. If meds don't work, then I'll have to resort to something else. Who knows what that'll be. I contacted my pdoc and he said (all answering machine stuff) that since we have an appt. next week, it's too lengthy to get into over the phone; this is the trickiest part - finding the right med. He said from my message, he says that there is a gray area between Mixed? or depressed? and he wasn't sure which it was with me. he told me to take all my medication at night instead of two times per day. because I was also complaining about always being tired; whether I'm having a good or bad day. Anyway, I see him in one week, so I do that and just see how I go.
as far as the enneagram. I scored a definite 4. I read it and almost cried. It was like someone called my bluff. A bluff I didn't know i had on a conscious level. The very close second was a 7. So it's quite interesting b/c at first I thought "what absolute opposites!" pre-dx of BP. and now it makes sense. The seven extrovert enthusiast who gets involved in lots of things, but never finishes them and the four, meloncholic, artist, tragic victim, romantic, "special one" whom no one understands. its' really interesting.
take care Katy,
Katia
p.s. how old are you?> Hey Katia--
>
> Yup--I hear you loud and clear about the friend support/understanding issue. I had a friend who kept suggesting that I stop my meds (even though she knew I had just been diagnosed bipolar---AND SHE"S A FREAKING PSYCHOLOGIST!) It really helps to have someone objective, friend or not to believe that there is something chemical and physical going on, and that it needs to be corrected (first and foremost) with meds. With time, I'm sure you'll find that someone will understand this beyond your doctor. Not everyone in the world is a sh*t-head!
>
> You know--I'm a '4' on the Enneagram scale, too!! My friend who helped me (through the suicidal crud) is a '4' too. I forget what my "wings" are, though. I haven't read any of that stuff, but my friend "diagnosed" me as a #4. I'd say it fits like a glove.
>
> Lithium is ok, i guess. I'm nowhere near a blood level to tell if it's working or if I'll tolerate it. I'm having these weird salty burps...eeeew!
> I'll keep you posted.
>
> Katy
Posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 0:50:14
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami!, posted by fluffy on August 29, 2003, at 11:02:29
HI Katy,
You mention it's been seven months since your dx of bp. and you also mentioned some med trial runs that were unsuccessful. What were they?
Katia
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 30, 2003, at 2:43:50
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » BarbaraCat, posted by katia on August 29, 2003, at 15:18:00
>>It's not so much fear as simply utter despair, with high energy.
**Yeah, sounds like mixed states. Welcome to the 'worst kind of bipolar or any other mental state' club. Truly, that's what 'they' say! At least you know it doesn't get worse than this and it sounds like you have a rapid cycling kind where you at least get a breather. Pity poor me who had to go through it year after year for months on end, no relief, no good days, only doom and panic. I marvel I'm still here.
The fear enters in when the despair and high energy turn into panic because you don't know what the hell is going on. I had no idea what was happening to me, that there was a name for it. I only knew that it didn't sound like any garden variety depression I'd ever heard of and the garden variety depression drugs were making it worse. I forget who said 'If you can name it, you can tame it'. I can't tell you how relieved I was the day I realized I had Bipolar Mixed States and was not instead lost and wandering around in Edgar Allen Poe's brain.
>>I think I feel frustrated because I don't have an outlet for these wild emotions. They need to come out. I'm trying to find healthy ways to do this.
**How about some bhastrika pranyama? Forgive me for explaining since I'm sure you know it, but any of those reading might be interested in how it's done cause it's a great release. It's known as the 'bellows breath'.
You sit or kneel with knees lower than hips so that your abdomen isn't compressed and raise your arms over your head with hands facing front and fingers spread open wide. All breathing is done from the nose. You vigorously pull your hands down in front of your shoulders closing them into fists and contracting the stomach to whoosh the air out of your nose.
Reach up while inhaling and filling the abdomen and lungs and spreading fingers open like in the beginning. The up and down makes one rep. It's like a bellows where you use the arms to pump the air in and out of the lungs. The whooshing out breath is emphasized cause it makes the correct inhale a natural response. It's moderately rapid with each rep lasting about 1 second. One breath cycle is 24 reps with 3 slow deep breaths in between each cycle. After about the 4th or 5th cycle I'm usually crying like a baby and rolling around on the floor kicking and drooling and IT FEELS SO GOOD to wring that crap out and get the oxygen in!!!
Posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 12:06:53
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 0:50:14
> HI Katy,
> You mention it's been seven months since your dx of bp. and you also mentioned some med trial runs that were unsuccessful. What were they?
> KatiaHey Katia--
Forgive me if I'm sounding like a broken record, and for the lengthy explanation....
When I first started suspecting BP instead of major depression, I was already taking Lexapro, which was spinning me into mixed states almost "24-7". (this was in October, actually--so I guess it's been longer than 7 months) If they were anything as intense as Barb-cat's, then I'm surprised she tolerated it for as long as she did.
Barb-cat--you are one hell of a trooper!!
Then, I expressed to my pdoc that I wasn't sleeping for nights on end, was feeling suicidal and "agitated" and on the verge of feeling violent, he calmly prescribed another SSRI for me--Zoloft, and added on 100mg of Neurontin. (big help that was!) Well I started having the same mixed feelings 3 weeks into it.
Like Barb-cat, I basically diagnosed myself, as my arrogant psychiatrist was not listening to my reactions to the SSRI's. I went to this board for help, and I was sure after reading others' posts and hearing descriptions of "mixed states" that I'd experienced them before, w/o the "aid" of antidepressants.
I called my pdoc in tears and told him I was feeling suicidal and "jumpy". After telling him my theory that I might possibly be BPII at my next appt., he prescribed 100mg Tegretol (basically, air) and instructed me to get my blood levels tested.
At this point (I think this is where I was feeling like you right now) I was completely confused, disheartened, deeply depressed. I decided to not get my blood tested, and I thought "f*ck psychiatry to bloody hell!" I went a couple more months, feeling nothing and decided to find the clinic I'm now going to. I continued to ramp up the Tegretol, but just felt depressed still.
Then I tried Lamictal for the past 5 months, which has been the most promising yet--SOMETHING happened--unlike the other meds just making things worse or not working at all. Now I'm trying Li to get a full remission of my symptoms. Hopefully it will work.
So in short, here's my history, FWIW:
1st major depressive episode, no panic symptoms, (19 yrs. old)
--no meds2nd episode with panic attacks, short-lived depressive episode (24 yrs. old)
--no meds3rd episode with panic, mixed states, major depressive episode (26 yrs. old)
--Paxil (1 yr)4th episode, with first clear hypomanic eurphoric state, followed by mixed states and a major depression (28-29 yrs. old)
--Lexapro (5 weeks)
--Zoloft, Neurontin (3 weeks)
--Tegretol 200mg (2 months)--Lamictal 200mg (5 months)
--Lithium ???I'm 29 years old now, and I've been going through med trials intensively for almost a year. trying to resolve the most recent and devistating episode, working towards remission (hope! hope!)
As to my psychologist friend who suggested I quit my meds...Well, she's known me practically my whole life, and I think it's hard for her to accept that over time, I'd become more critically ill. And being a psychologist, "talk therapy" is supposed to overcome depression. She is very uncompliant with ANY medication, so I think she was projecting her fear of medications onto me. Needless to say, I don't consult here anymore when I'm frustrated!!
Anyway--I hope this helps!
Best of luck,Katy
Posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 12:10:46
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 0:50:14
Katia--
Oh yeah--I forgot to say that the clinic I'm going to now is a mood disorders clinic, and they confirmed my diagnosis of BPII.
What is your history, Katia? I recall it being similar in terms of meds you tried. How old are you? If you feel like explaining it, I'm curious to know.
Katy
Posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 14:06:26
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami! » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on August 30, 2003, at 2:43:50
> **Yeah, sounds like mixed states. Welcome to the 'worst kind of bipolar or any other mental state' club. Truly, that's what 'they' say! At least you know it doesn't get worse than this and it sounds like you have a rapid cycling kind where you at least get a breather.It really varies Barb. Which is why it's been so tough for me to dx.
>>Pity poor me who had to go through it year after year for months on end, no relief, no good days, only doom and panic. I marvel I'm still here.
Yes, I marvel that I am still here too. After years of not being able to "name it nor tame it", I know what you mean.
thanks for the bellow's breath, I'll give it a try. I mean more of a creative outlet. I'm having trouble finding that and feel stuck and frustrated/blocked.
I recently just heard on another post that depakote can cause PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome), which can basically mean BARREN. I want kids one day and especially with my history of heartbreaking pregnancies, I can't gamble with this one. have you heard about this?
Katia
Posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 14:33:34
In reply to Re: Hysteria in Tsunami!, posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 12:10:46
Hi Katy,
NO, forgive ME for having to ask again. My memory is zilch; I'm surprised I'm even making it thru' this life on my own!I'm recently 33 yrs. old.
My depression/mood history: (and ALL this time, i was never diagnosed or treated until last summer).11 yrs. old - first major depression after/during summer camp
Teenage depression starting around 13.
First "manic" episode at 17 - spring semester of senior year going into summer.
18 - first year at college - major depression. A distinct mood change from the previous six or so months.
apart from few brief moments of feeling "normal", i've been increasingly getting more and more depressed and disabled as the years go by.
19-20 depressed.
21 - went into a nice content clear headed phase and then I think I went hypomanic/mixed during the winter; came crashing into a depression.
21-23 mixed. depression.
23 yr. old found myself in France with beautiful french lover working at a ski resort - felt WONDERFUL. and felt intermittently/paradoxically sad all at the same time.
24-major crisis pushed me into the first real suicidal depression and I stayed there for years - never really to recover - brief periods where it went to something milder like "dsythimia (sp?".
25-28 I travelled a lot running from it - even joined the Peace Corps and went to Siberia. Fell into another horrible depression that winter.
blah blah blah more travelling more love affairs....
finally made my way back to U.S. in 98' when I was 28 and was again deeply depressed.
By 2000, I started grad school and I couldn't "shake this thing".
By 2001, I met another foreign man - Scottish, dated him for six months and then picked up and left to live in Scotland with him for a brief while. It was horrendous. My mild/mod depressive state was turning to severe that fall as I was in grad school/doing a yoga teacher training and working in wine sales! (and maintaining this relationship). I crashed when Igot to the U.K. in the DEAD of winter. I could barely pull myself out of bed; cry cry cry, crawl to the shower to get up; drank, fought, and you know what else with him. It was completely insane. I was wild. I even challenged him with his own sword one night (he's a black belt). I tried to rip my own throat out with my fingernails, right in front of him. I was in such such agony and he was NO help thinking that it was him and "us" causing me such grief - big ego thing. not being able to see that I needed serious help.
anyway, after the end of four months, I found out I was pregnant and he sent me home with a one way ticket to Cal. I was catapulted to the DEEPEST of hells ever imaginable. The only place for me to go was to a "friend's" house, who really didn't want me there and we are now no longer friends. Iwon't even begin to describe here what depths of hell I entered last summer; but needless to say that did it for me. I knew w/o a doubt I needed to get professional help.
med history:
Celexa 10 weeks - nada. just insomnia/a slight raise for one day maybe and then I came crashing again.
Effexor - four months. It worked at first, but in a "wierd" way. basically I was hypo/mixed on it. So it got me up and moving that's for sure.
Zoloft - 3 months. made me a zombieeeeeeee.
Serzone - 2 months? As soon as I started it, I went zippy hypo. And that made me realize that I'm probably BP. I was at overworked clinics and no one was paying attention to me, so I took out more student loans and went to a private pdoc.
And so here I am trying out Depakote.
So that's my history (in short - if you can believe it!).
Katia
Posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 15:24:15
In reply to Histoire de Katia » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 14:33:34
Wow Katia-
Interesting to hear your experiences (I know they were painful to you--thank you for sharing that stuff)
I'd definitely say that you're on the right track as far as your treatment goes. From what you've told me, it sounds as though the BP diagnosis fits (personal history coupled with your reactions to anti-depressants). I'm no doc, but I have faith that you'll get a response from a mood stabilizer.
I can't say that my manic episodes are similar. "My" manias consist of a flurry of activities (like too many home improvement projects), increased energy, quick thoughts. When it's been its most severe, I've told people off, written bad things about friends or important people in my career on message boards (that they all read!--completely ruined career connections and friendships), planned parties for everyone I knew, drank 3-4 nights a week, in love with 2-3 guys at a time....etc...
Have you read "And Unquiet Mind" yet? It's required reading for the newly diagnosed. (in my opinion)
keep in touch,
katy
Posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 15:33:11
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia, posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 15:24:15
Hi Barb-cat--
I re-read your post about your experiences with Li. So can I infer that you had some annoying side effects that went away over time (on that dose)?
I've been on this stuff for 2 days, and my head feels a little fuzzy. I don't much like the feeling--it's hard to explain--not SLEEPY--just weird. A bit nauseous. Did the fuzzy head thing fade? I know it's only been two days--I can be patient. When I read about Lithium, it sounds like ---you tolerate it, or you don't---. I don't hear about side effects fading over time.
Hope you are doing well,
Katy
Posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 15:33:35
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia, posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 15:24:15
> Wow Katia-
>
> Interesting to hear your experiences (I know they were painful to you--thank you for sharing that stuff)
>
> I'd definitely say that you're on the right track as far as your treatment goes. From what you've told me, it sounds as though the BP diagnosis fits (personal history coupled with your reactions to anti-depressants). I'm no doc, but I have faith that you'll get a response from a mood stabilizer.
>
> I can't say that my manic episodes are similar. "My" manias consist of a flurry of activities (like too many home improvement projects), increased energy, quick thoughts. When it's been its most severe, I've told people off, written bad things about friends or important people in my career on message boards (that they all read!--completely ruined career connections and friendships), planned parties for everyone I knew, drank 3-4 nights a week, in love with 2-3 guys at a time....etc...
>
> Have you read "And Unquiet Mind" yet? It's required reading for the newly diagnosed. (in my opinion)
>
> keep in touch,
> katyHi Katy,
I have read An Unquiet Mind ironically enough about eight years ago! Something was drawing me to read stuff like that; but it just took me this long to wake up to it within myself.You're "highs" sound very similar to mine. I can't tell you how many friends I've lost due to my irrational reactions!!!!
As far as treatment goes, I'm ready to throw in the bag with Depakote. I just read the it can cause PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) which can cause infertility and a host of other things.
Have you heard this? Maybe I'll be joing the Li/Lam chain gang soon!
Katia
Posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 16:10:13
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 15:33:35
Hey Katia--
I have heard about the PCOS thing. I don't think it ALWAYS happens. And I wonder if PCOS always makes a woman infertile?? I was just tested out for that very thing (to research if Lamictal does the same). I'm sure there are warning signs if you start to develop it (cramps, bleeding). And maybe it goes away if you discontinue? Make a list and ask your doctor. Depakote has been around awhile, so I'm sure there are stats on the PCOS thing.
Don't throw in the towel yet. How is your mood now? ( Aside from the tsunami?)
take care,
katy
Posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 20:57:06
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia, posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 16:10:13
I won't stop taking it yet. I'll talk to my pdoc about it. I have had ovarian cysts before and I have pains in my abdomen. So who knows!? My mood today? It feels ridiculous, but i feel I have no friends, no one loves me, people only call me when they're desperate and have nothing else to do or need something, everyone else has a life but me, lonesome, etc. I hate holidays, no matter what form. They just remind me of how alone I am in this world. That's how I feel today.
I'm irritable too. I just took a yoga class and I couldn't relax in the savasana because some woman had the loudest nose/breathing and it annoyed me to no end. It ignited anger, hatred, a feeling of being caged/trapped/nowhere to go; I just wanted to cry out of frustration for being me. I just wanted to go and punch her and ask her how dare she take a yoga class with such a noisy nose! This is the insanity I'm talking about. It's no fun to be me. Is this obsessive disorder? What is with me??????
So that's my mood today.
and you>?
Katia
> Hey Katia--
>
> I have heard about the PCOS thing. I don't think it ALWAYS happens. And I wonder if PCOS always makes a woman infertile?? I was just tested out for that very thing (to research if Lamictal does the same). I'm sure there are warning signs if you start to develop it (cramps, bleeding). And maybe it goes away if you discontinue? Make a list and ask your doctor. Depakote has been around awhile, so I'm sure there are stats on the PCOS thing.
>
> Don't throw in the towel yet. How is your mood now? ( Aside from the tsunami?)
>
> take care,
> katy
Posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 12:08:05
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 20:57:06
Hey Katia--
Glad to hear you won't discontinue the Depakote--Boy do I know how tempting it is to just chuck it all. Seems like it would feel good sometimes. But the alternative--living with feeling horribly depressed and pissing people off around you---well it ain't pretty. It's especially tempting when it seems the meds aren't doing a hill of beans worth of good.
It sounds as if you are experiencing a classic, agitated depression--a state that I know well. (you're probably like--duh!!). I had to laugh about the loud breathing thing. Usually for me, my boyfriend is the target--what he's wearing, how he's walking, what his voice sounds like--AAARRGH! That's a horrible way to veiw the world. I hope you feel better really soon Katia. I guess you'll see your doc soon?
So guess what?? I'm feeling NORMAL today--yeah--NORMAL. Pretty fuckin' cool, huh? The first two days of Li made me think that I don't want to take this stuff--I wouldn't want to feel like I did those past couple of days every day of my life, that's for sure. But I think I was overblowing the side effects b/c I honestly didn't want to take the stuff even though it could help. In fact, I had much worse side effects with Paxil. So it seems the side effects have subsided already. Just a word of warning if you ever take it. The first few days SUCK. I was all confused and disconnected--my brain felt like it wasn't mine (if that makes any sense). I couldn't remember things, and I felt blunted. Not today, though!! We'll see what my blood level is and/or if I get a therapeutic response from "sub-therapeutic" levels.
cyber-hugs,
Katy
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:10:22
In reply to Barb-cat (or anyone else)--quick Lithium question, posted by fluffy on August 30, 2003, at 15:33:11
Hi Katy,
Yep, lots of side fx that went away. Let's see if I can remember:
1. Nausea, especially if I took on an empty stomache and headache, but only for 1 week
2. Trembly feeling inside and shakey hands
3. Metallic taste in mouth, thirst all the time
4. Smelly pee, lots of it and clear
5. Craving for salt (which you should take more of anyway cause all that peeing depletes it)
6. Tiredness
7. Just feeling weird, kinda in a Limbo place
8. Fuzzy headThese diminished in 1.5 to 3 weeks. They were never incapacitating the way some of the other meds made me feel. It was a little hard to get going in the morning, but no big deal. The fuzzy headed was annoying, but no worse than other meds and I knew from experience that it would subside eventually (tho' that is usually the last to go).
Important: TAKE WITH FOOD.
Then when I increased from 600mg to 900mg, which was where my pdoc wanted me based on the blood work, I got those same side fx again, only this time it felt disruptive and uncomfortable, like it was definitely too high. I backed down to 600mg. Even tho my therpeutic zone wasn't even in the 'low' range, I felt it was working good enough for me. 600mg seems perfect, 300 is definitely too low and I get the disorganization and frenetic stuff at that level. Sometimes some hypomania will break through and I wonder if I should be taking more, but it does pass eventually and I'm glad I held the course. Kay Redfield Jamison said that she eventually decreased because she didn't like the deadening effects and, although she gets the breakthroughs, all in all she's happy with her decision - riding the edge.
At one point when I was complaining about tiredness at first, he had me take it all at night instead of spacing it out (I think I might have been on 900mg at this point as well). I felt TERRIBLE the next morning, just awful, like that awful shakey blurpy feeling after drinking way too much. So I imagine this is what it can feel like if it's increased too fast - yuck. But it never was bad like that for me.
One other time when I went on nortriptyline, all those same things surfaced, but I'll never know if it was the combo, nortriptyline's effects, or what. The point is, all of these went away in time. I felt a nice calmness come upon me at about 3 weeks within each new settling in - nothing remarkable, just a 'normal' feeling that also made my other meds work better.
The only one that has not gone away, and for me is the most worrisome is the thyroid issue. I've been hypothyroid for at least 20 years and have it controlled through meds. Improperly treated, I'm miserable. I knew lithium could be problematic and could replace thyroxine hormone, but I didn't think it would happen to me. It did and I'm still trying to get my levels normal. Docs say 'Oh, that's easy to treat. Just take more thyroid hormone'. A rather typical response. But I'm worried about what it's doing to my thyroid long term. But that's the ONLY complaint I have about it.
I wouldn't want to raise lithium higher into my 'therapeutic window' because I feel it probably would interfere with creativity, sesitivity, spontaneity, thyroid, and such.
I've heard it said that it causes weight gain, but I've been on so many weight gaining meds (Remeron, nortriptyline, blobbing around) that I doubt lithium would make that much difference. I really do have to watch my exercise levels and diet, but hell, most women my age do anyway, and so should everyone for that matter.
You could ask your pdoc for extended release lithium. I think we talked about this before and they were too expensive for you? I've never taken, but heard the extended form greatly diminishes problems. I most definitely would not say that it either works for you or doesn't, based on transient side effects. Give it time, maybe even more than you're comfortable with, because it's definitely worth it. You may need to take measures into your own hands as to time of dosing, strength of dosing, etc. Take more salt (sea salt) and get your thyroid checked regularly and don't let your TSH go over 3.0 NO MATTER what the docs say. You do NOT want a low thyroid. I can't remember why others stopped lithium, what reasons interferred (it was usually fear of anticipated effects rather than real), but I can't recall anyone claiming it didn't help them greately. I don't think it even matter if you're not classic BP. Lithium augments any AD or mood stabilizer, simply by the way it (seems) to act on the ion gates and electrical potential of the neuronal axon. It target another mechanism and even increase Brain Derived Neuronal Factor which makes dendrites grow and is a very good thing.
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:26:31
In reply to Re: Barb-cat (or anyone else)--quick Lithium question » fluffy, posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:10:22
When I take my lithium pills now (300mg morning and night), it's like taking a vitamin pill. This is the one pill I can truly say causes no side effects that I'm aware of. Maybe something's going on subsurface (like the thyroid thing, but as long as I'm taking thyroid, no big deal). I don't believe it's causing any ticking time bomb in any other way. It's the most effective, least problematic, cheapest med I've ever taken. I resisted for SOOOOO LONG! Here are my reasons for resisting. I hope to hear from you. It will be enlightening.
1. Lithium! Awwwk! That means I'm really crazy.
2. What will my friends/family think if they know I'm taking it? Won't they relate to me differently? (Awwwk! She's really crazy!) (I still hide the bottle when I have company).
3. It will take away my creative juices and I will be dull, dull, dull.
4. I like being hypomanic, if only I could sustain it
5. I will get fat and mushy
6. I'm sick of taking pills and I don't want one more pill!
7. I'm worried about the supposed toxicity of going over that narrow therapeutic window.
8. I'm really bummed about the blood tests (BTW, after I decided to go subtherapeutic, I have bloodwork every 6 months. Before that it was once a month).So, there's my litany. I'm particularly interested in hearing what made those who dedided on Depakote or some other mood stabilizer, do so in leiu of lithium. Thanks. Barbara
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:34:55
In reply to Re: Histoire de Katia » fluffy, posted by katia on August 30, 2003, at 20:57:06
Heh, Heh. Can really relate to the honkin breathers. I also have an overpowering urge to emerge from my samadhi and go over and deck the creep. I've pounded my poor long suffering husband on the back - really pounded - and yelled "YOU INSENSTIVE A**HOLE, YOUR F**ING SNORING WOKE ME UP!!!!" snarl, slobber, growl. I'm very sensitive to noise and can't sleep if there's the faintest sound of a TV far away. Have always been this way as far back as I remember.
So, I always have a spare of earplugs in my purse wherever I go. Just knowing they're there helps me get through alot of situations. I ALWAYS use them for savasana. - Barbara
Posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 12:50:17
In reply to Snores and such » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:34:55
For those who have reported sucess
taking lamictal,
are you still on it
and for how long?I go to new pdoc this week
and want to have some ideas worked out.Thanx
Posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 13:32:02
In reply to Re: Barb-cat (or anyone else)--quick Lithium question » fluffy, posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 12:10:22
Hey Barb-cat--
Thanks so much for your response. It was most helpful. I'm so glad the side effects fade over time. I can honestly say that on 600mg, for only 3 days, the side effects are almost zilch!!! YEAHHH!!!
It's good to hear others' personal experiences with Lithium b/c it seems there's only really dry clinical stuff in the books that makes the stuff seem so scary!
Now I have to watch my mood chart and see what it does in that respect. But I feel pretty centered today. I am so glad, b/c I had that visit in my studio today with the museum big-wig. It went well. (turns out she's not really a big-wig--about my age, but leaving an important institution to pursue her own curatorial projects). THANK GOD I didn't feel like I did over the last couple of days!! I couldn't see, speak, or think correctly (let alone talk abstractly about concepts surrounding my artwork). WHEW!
Thanks again!
Katy
Posted by SUMMER2002 on August 31, 2003, at 13:42:46
In reply to Lamictal Survey, posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 12:50:17
Lamictal survey - I've been on lamicatal 250 mg for close to two months. I stopped charting because I finally leveled off. I'm only taking flurazapam to sleep at night. I was on abilify prior to this and it didn't work for me at all - no ups just huge downs. Prior to that I was on zyprexa for a short while and tegretol w/ wellbutrin. Part of the changing in meds was due to me switching from pdoc to pdoc. I couldn't find one I liked. Anyway, at first the lamicatal worked great- helped with the depression and I got some of the highs back. It was great. Lately though I've been in a slump and can't shake it. I have four kids and work so I have to do the day to day routine but it is becoming harder and harder. No more highs. I have many outside stressors. My pdoc, who I really respect, says I have to reduce the outside stressors. That it is not the meds. I like him becasue he's the first to say I am not my diagnosis. He also said many bps are stupid (yep that is what he said) because we don't reduce the stressors in our life. I suppose he's right. But hard to reduce stress in my life but don't want to over medicate when I have some control over my feelings. Or at least I think I do. Bit overwhelming and a bit confused. He seems to think that my behavior as of late is because of the problems I'm having with husband and juggling work/kids etc. I don't know - but in conclusion lamactil did and does work. I'm not fuzzy in the brain like I was with abilify. Sorry about the ramblings - hope this helps.
Patricia
Posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 13:43:52
In reply to Lamictal Survey, posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 12:50:17
Hi Ima--
> For those who have reported sucess
> taking lamictal,
> are you still on it----I had partial success with Lamictal (no success on other AD's) I'm currently on 200mg and trying augmentation with Li b/c of prevalence of soft/rapid cycling on Lamictal only. So far, so good.
> and for how long?
-----7 months--
(it took a month or so to take effect & titrate up to therapeutic amt.
>
> I go to new pdoc this week
> and want to have some ideas worked out.
>
----GOOD LUCK Miss Ima!
Are you currently taking any other drugs? I'm guessing you are BP?
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 14:05:46
In reply to Re: Lamictal Survey, posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 13:43:52
Hi All,
I think there was a Lamictal survey earlier. Inquiring minds want to know about all this stuff, however, please don't forget my Lithium survey. I'd appreciate hearing your thoughts on lithium rather than lamictal, primarily those who decided against Li and opted for another mood stablzr, like depakote, or are just plain hesitant to take it. Why? What are your thoughts/fears on this? I listed mine earlier, but want to hear yours.Part two of the survey is if you then went to Lithium after being on another MS and what were your experiences? Not that it's going to make one whit of difference for me cause I'm sold on lithium. I just think it would be helpful for others who are struggling with these questions, and besides it would be interesting for me. Thanks. Barbara
Posted by Ponder on August 31, 2003, at 14:08:56
In reply to Lamictal Survey, posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 12:50:17
Ima,
I started on Lamictal during the summer of 2001. At that time I was in a protracted hypersomnulent, overwhelmed-with-fatigue kind of depression. After years of med trials, Lamictal was the first one that really seemed to work. It did not make me symptom free (well, actually, for a few days at a time, it would) so Wellbutrin was added. The last few years have been a hellish climb out of the worst of that depression and I would not have made it without Lamictal.Now to answer your question more directly. How long did it work for me? I'd say quite well for over a year at a relatively low dose (150 mg/day.) I had break-through symptoms, but nothing like the zombie-ness of before. Recently I raised the dose to 200/day. In the last six months I've had some scary suicidal ideation, huge anxiety problems, etc. My p-doc has wanted to add or change things, but I cling to my Lam/WB combo with what is probably irrational loyalty and eschew other meds. Oddly, when you finally find something that works, you are reluctant to give it up even when it's not working very well anymore. At least, that's my reaction.
The other consideration for me was side effects over the long haul. I had gained weight on other drugs which brought on all kinds of other problems associated with being fat--arthritic pain, high BP, stress incontinance (this may not be a problem for younger women.) So weight gain was something I was determined to avoid. I've lost 50 pounds (that I had gained on Effexor)while being on the Lam/WB combo. Part of that is because the drugs are sufficiently activating to make me want to keep going all day and I've added very regular exercise to my daily therapeutic efforts.
So, it's been a mixed bag, I guess. But for now, I'm still on it. I recently had my first full-blown panic attack (situational? drugs too activating? emergence of yet another comorbidity?--who knows?) and my care providers are pretty hot to put me on an SSRI. Me, I've just become a damned scaredy-cat about med trials and wd prefer to just take Ativan as needed.
My med choices may not be the most rational, but there they are, for what it's worth.
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 14:20:11
In reply to Re: Barb-cat --quick Lithium question--THANKS!, posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 13:32:02
You go, Girl!! It took me 3 days on 600mg lithium to notice a major shift. Although most side fx took 3 weeks to settle in so that they didn't worry me, I too felt that centered quality you spoke of. There's no better way to describe it. It's like, instead of all the scattered discordant energies and thoughts being on the periphery, ready to fly off into space, they're instead gathered in and aligned to a central steady core. For me, it was like taking the blinders off that wonderful warm centered glow inside that comes from that centerpoint, which is always there, but we don't always believe it is. It will continue to work and get better for you, I'm sure, because it sounds like you hit the magic transition point very quickly. To me, this indicates something in you lapped it right up. It is a natural element, after all, so who knows, we might have a deficit, like some other mineral or vitamin?
You'll have setbacks. I REPEAT!!! YOU WILL HAVE SETBACKS where you'll think it's not working, but it takes time for the internal mechanisms of our neurons to stabilize, so have faith that it's only for a short time. Even if lithium isn't the final answer, it will make everything else you take so much more efficient.
I'm so happy for you, girlfriend. Hopefully, a dark cloud has lifted in your life, like it did for me. And believe me, I was the 'F**cked-up' poster child of the last century!!!! - Barbara
I'm so glad the side effects fade over time. I can honestly say that on 600mg, for only 3 days, the side effects are almost zilch!!! YEAHHH!!!
>
> It's good to hear others' personal experiences with Lithium b/c it seems there's only really dry clinical stuff in the books that makes the stuff seem so scary!
>
> Now I have to watch my mood chart and see what it does in that respect. But I feel pretty centered today. I am so glad, b/c I had that visit in my studio today with the museum big-wig. It went well. (turns out she's not really a big-wig--about my age, but leaving an important institution to pursue her own curatorial projects). THANK GOD I didn't feel like I did over the last couple of days!! I couldn't see, speak, or think correctly (let alone talk abstractly about concepts surrounding my artwork). WHEW!
>
> Thanks again!
>
> Katy
Posted by BarbaraCat on August 31, 2003, at 14:53:27
In reply to Lamictal Survey, posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 12:50:17
Ima,
I consider myself a success story. Please take my success and experience as my own, and not necessarily one that will apply to you. If your chemistry and wiring is similar to mine, it will probably work, but it's really still a crap shoot as to what will eventually work and stick. If you don't get a really good response in about 3 weeks at about 50mg, consider supplementing with another mood stabiliser (lithium worked for me). Lamictal on it's own is usually not a good idea for BP's and there might be something going on instead of or in addition to BP. I'm probably not saying anything you don't already know in your sleep, but it's still important to remember.I started Lam 1.5 years ago, about the same time as I started Lithium. I'd heard about this powerful combo in for treatment resistant depression. I turned out to have all signs of BP-I mixed states, but had been treated as having major depression and treated with SSRI's for 20 years, I was increasingly and more rapidly going insane and majorly hit the wall on two occasions requiring hospitalizations which were a joke (I should have had ECT instead of 'a newer and better SSRI - (drum roll) - Celexa! and of course, Craft Hour!). I started feeling amazingly better on this combo. Not to say that I didn't have major setbacks and terrible depressions, but I've never since had another mixed state depression and for that I fall on my knees and give thanks.
I'm current taking 125mg lamicatal, recently up from 75 where I'd been for almost a year, doing reasonably well. I have to take it along with lithium because one doesn't work without the other for controlling my dark despairing agitated depressions. I increased from 75mg, slowly aiming for 150mg because I heard that 150-200 was a good dose for optimum AD response and being under extremely severe stresses with deaths, illnesses, losses and felt I needed extra help causing I was falling into the hole again. I got a little agitation with each weekly 12.5mg increase, but had been through that before and knew it passed.
However, when I got to 150mg I was feeling really zippy and speedy which was OK except for the infernal horrible itch I got that I didn't at first associated with Lamictal until I researched it on the web. I knew about 'the rash' but not the itch. So I backed down to 125mg and have been very stable along with 600mg lithium. Except for an intense hopelessness blip a while back (again, I had huge losses and stresses I was dealing with and wasn't sleeping - terrible for me) I'm feeling pretty darn good. My BS meter is super sensitive these days and my temper sometimes gets the better of me, but after cowering and doubting my feelings for so long, I'm rather happy with this turn of events. Too much crap in this world. Too much rolling over and putting up with it. FOOEY ON THAT! But even with all my meditating and yoga and such, I can be a RAVING BITCH and need to channel it some way.
I'm also seriously pursuing a health regimen with my naturopath and think it's very important to my overall health and sanity to cover all basis - body, mind, spirit. Good luck. - BarbaraCat
> For those who have reported sucess
> taking lamictal,
> are you still on it
> and for how long?
>
> I go to new pdoc this week
> and want to have some ideas worked out.
>
> Thanx
>
>
Posted by Ima on August 31, 2003, at 14:54:46
In reply to Re: Lamictal Survey, posted by fluffy on August 31, 2003, at 13:43:52
>> Are you currently taking any other drugs? I'm guessing you are BP?
We'll both have to speculate for now. But Im open to speculators (benign ones anyway:)I was recently misdiognosed, two different docs.
One put me on ultram which is increasing my mania.
The next put me on Neurontin to help with insomnia and fibro pain. And zoloft for "depression".
I ended up with serotonin syndrome (hyper stimualation of the brain stem) and didnt sleep for three days. When the tremors started I checked the drug interaction myself and found it to be major. SSRI's and pain meds. dont mix.
I decided to try another pdoc this week. When I complained of the mental fog and utter morose feeling Im having with the Neurontin, I was told by last pdoc, that was just me (me in a depressed state). Its not me! Ive lived with my depression for 35 plus years. I KNOW what my depression feels like. I felt I was litlerally dragging my face around.
(maybe Im missing something here, but docs who dont listen, or at least pretend to listen, i give no quarter to)
MY depressions are filled angst one minute and numbness the next. The worse it gets the more detached I feel, until someone bumps my shell and I come out long enough to scream them into submission and then I retreat until the next bump. Bumps can be anything, (I liked the "you breathe, you die" scenario y'all:), people eating dinner, someone looking at me, someone walking by the same pair of shoes in the middle of my way, 50 times a day and not picking them up!!! NOT my shoes of course.
My highs dont last that long (my poor family) and are usually marked with irritabilty. I never sleep deeply. But when Im manic 4-5 hours does it. (Some nights I dont sleep at all)
When Im depresed 12 hrs. sleep is not enough.
I ranting.
Yea, I think Im BP.
Thanx for the good wishes, Miss Fluffy ;)
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