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Posted by TexasChic on November 10, 2008, at 22:03:27
I actually WISH I could purge! But I really, REALLY hate throwing up. But at least I wouldn't have the fat.
I know that's messed up thinking. I actually eat until I feel I could throw up. I give myself diarrhea all the time from binging. Its awful. I've been anorexic before, and I've felt that closing in recently as well. Ana gives you a high once you get past a certain point. At my last job I worked so much I started to skip eating, and I began to feel that high/lure. Now I stuff my face until I almost throw up. I'm completely aware its an anxiety thing, but I'm running low on meds and feeling very OCD (which is the category I feel my binging falls into). I replace anxiety with stuffing food in my face. I don't know what I'm asking for here, if anything, I just needed to put it our there. At times like these, I hate myself.
-T
Posted by JayMac on November 14, 2008, at 19:46:33
In reply to Binging-can't seem 2 stop-trigger-anorexia trig/2, posted by TexasChic on November 10, 2008, at 22:03:27
TexasChic,
It sounds like you are in a whole lot of pain! Are you able to identify what triggers you to binge? I read that you said anxiety. I, also, have anxiety. I'm curious if you could expand on what it means to you. I'm wondering what situations are anixety provoking?
JayMac
Posted by TexasChic on November 14, 2008, at 20:50:55
In reply to Binging-can't seem 2 stop-trigger-anorexia trig/2, posted by TexasChic on November 10, 2008, at 22:03:27
Well, here recently its mainly not having a job and not having adequate meds thats stressing me out. I guess I keep eating as an effort to self medicate. But I've been feeling a bit better since I first posted this, and not binging. I can see how people binge and purge though, when you eat so much you feel like you could throw up, its not hard to see how you move to that next step.
Despite feeling better, I've started feeling the anxiety coming on here in the past hour or so. I wish I had some Xanax, or a cigarette, but I'm all out, and quit smoking. Sometimes there doesn't need to be a trigger, just overall anxiety about life in general I guess.
I'll be okay. I've just been upset about the job situation and feeling inadequate. But I've gone from feeling depressed to determined to keep myself as busy as possible with the job hunt. I appreciate for the support!
-T
Posted by JayMac on November 15, 2008, at 12:49:44
In reply to Re: Binging-can't seem 2 stop-trigger-anorexia tri » TexasChic, posted by TexasChic on November 14, 2008, at 20:50:55
I can relate. I have major anxiety. Without the help of medication and the support of a therapist, I wouldn't be able to manage myself.
I can also relate with the need to binge. I am an emotional eater in recovery, if there is such a thing. I've done some major binging. I've done some purging as well. It's not something I'm proud of, but I am proud that I've overcome it. I still emotionally eat here and there, but it's not a constant, everyday, everyhour, everysecond type of fight within me. 'Not to suggest that you NEED medication, but does/did it help?
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