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Posted by inimitable on December 28, 2006, at 23:23:58
the title sums it up, that's how i feel most of the time, worthless and stupid. it doens't help that i live in a college town, and i myself am dropiing out of college for a couple semesters because i need a break. i have been going to college and university for almost seven years, and still no degree, because i do all myclasses half *ssed. sure, i might get interested and participate in class, but when it comes to doing homework or studying for a test...it doesn't happen. i am not at all a motivated individual, although i would love to become one. but there's nothing i can actually get excited about because i feel like i could never do anythign about my ambitions. like i'd love to become more involved in backp[acking and other outdoors stuff, but i don't have the gear or funds for a backpacking trip, and no one to go with, and not enough knowledge to go by myself. but that is one thing i could get interested in, because it is my kind of thing, and i don't need to be a brain to do it. because let's face it, i am NOT an intellectual, like so many people here (in this college town) are. i don't get riled up over politics, have no knowledge about history of any sort, can't name all the fifty states, and never bother to learn them again (i once knew, maybe in fifth grade). i have talked to my t about this before, but maybe i will copy what i am writing here and let him see the depth of it, although this isn't much more info than i've given him. it doesn't help when i have a sister who's the smartest and most ambitious person in the world it seems (whom i just visited out in washington). the thing is, also, i want, in a significant other, i want them to be motivated and know what they're doing with their life, but usually thos epeople wnat someone like them. and that's not me.
ug.
*inimitable
Posted by Declan on December 28, 2006, at 23:31:59
In reply to worthless and stupid, posted by inimitable on December 28, 2006, at 23:23:58
I took 9 years to get my BA, and only got it then because they had a 10 year limit.
Or you could move to Australia and remember the names of the states so much more easily.
Posted by muffled on December 29, 2006, at 1:01:22
In reply to worthless and stupid, posted by inimitable on December 28, 2006, at 23:23:58
Awww sorry you feeling bad :(
But as for hitting the bush, backcountry, whatever you wanto call it, well, it don't really take much....
Secondhand stores can be a great resource for appropriate clothing and mebbe some basics.
The ONE thing I would proly spend some dough on is good boots, and second to that a good lightweight sleeping bag.
But boots FIRST.
You can start on short trips in better weather to start, and find out what your priorties are, as far as what you want to bring with you. Weight adds up FAST.
You don't need fancy coats, fancy packs, fancy this, fancy that. Sure, lotsa that stuff can make it more easy and safer and more comfortable, but THEY ARE NOT NEEDED.
So do a little research on what you might wanto take, where you might want to go(easy marked trails),and just go to the outdoors. Just do it!
Ya, and practice lighting fires might be a good idea too. A fire can make any trip going bad seem not so bad....without a doubt its a major skill.
But there's books on stuff like all that.
I wish I could just GO.
But I not so physically capeable of it no more :(
And I got young kids yet, and I can't carry extra stuff for them....
I KNOW!!! I need a horse.
I think I gonna go rob me a bank and buy me a horse!
HA!
Hmmmmmmm.
Never give up!!!
Hope you can get out there.
Its SO beautiful.
Can't explain it.
Soothes my soul it does to be out in the bush...
Take care,
Muffled
Posted by Poet on December 29, 2006, at 11:21:58
In reply to worthless and stupid, posted by inimitable on December 28, 2006, at 23:23:58
Hi Inimitable,
Ah, so you have one of those sister's too? Mine managed to land a job in her field while still in college. What do I base all my self esteem on: career. What I am right now: unemployed. Anyway, I know that feeling of being wortheless and stupid very well.
I am not an outdoors person, but my perfect sister is, and she's a member of a kayak club. Maybe there's some kind of backpacking club you could join? I know she buys used kayak equipment through the club, so if there is a backpacking club they'd probably have used equipment, too. That's if you're okay with joining a group activity, that's not something I could do, but I thought I'd suggest it.
I have a math learning disability (it took four years of therapy for me to stop saying I'm retarded) and my math skills are about fourth grade level. I use Excel and a calculator and get along just fine. I don't think it matter that you can't name all 50 states, you can name the ones that are important to you and you can always look up the rest if you ever needed to.
Hang in there. I hope you find a way to do that backpacking.
Poet
Posted by inimitable on December 29, 2006, at 14:32:41
In reply to Re: worthless and stupid » inimitable, posted by Poet on December 29, 2006, at 11:21:58
yeah i haven't been tested but i think my math ability is at about fourth grade too. i think my limit is fractions. i have taken the lowest form of math twice. i droppe dout once and then failed the next time. i still need it for my degree, so i'll ahve to do it eventually, and pass.
and muffled, you better plan your bank robbery so that no one gets hurt! other than that, good luck on it! heehehehe :) thanks for the suggestions. i don't have any money at all right now (won't even be able to pay rent on the first). but i do already have a pair of hiking boots that i bought last year for my first and only backpacking trip (a class). so i have those. i don't have a car though, and live in a tiny little town that has a big university in it, so it's filled with apartments, campus, and stores. there are some woods, but only tiny ones, with not much to hike in. hopefully once i get a job, i can save a little money to go for a weekend trip one day, or at least a very good day trip :)
my therapist has told me before that i may feel worthless and stupid, but i have qualities that others don't have, like that i am insightful! my thereapist told me i was insightful! i have always thought that of myself (mainly how i know about myself, not really how insightful i am with others), and i told him yeah i might be insightful and all, and i think that that is why i was slow to get close to him, being my thereapist and all, because if i got too close to him, he would get to know me better than i knew myself, and since i always prided myself on knowing myself better than anyone else, if he knew me better than me, he would take the only thing away from me that i have to be proud of! but he hasn't taken it all yet, cause he doens't know me better than me yet, but i am sure with time, he might, and the idea is kind of scary, but hopefully by the time that happens, i'll have gotten some other ability (like backpacking) that i could be proud of, and it won't matter as much anymore!
*inimitable
Posted by muffled on December 31, 2006, at 7:52:58
In reply to Re: worthless and stupid, posted by inimitable on December 29, 2006, at 14:32:41
I was just thinking.
I did some of my best hiking in the rocky mountains.
It was SO beautiful.
I worked in a tourist town in a restaraunt, and on my days off went hiking, and after work too. It was great!
Tourist towns often have cheap (mebbe not so nice, but cheap) accomodation for their workers also.
If your a server, you can make good tips and save $$$.
Just a thot.
Muffled
(ps it was in the Jasper/Banff area in B.C., and there were lots of diff jobs avail. I applied EVERYWHERE, and got a job w/in a week as I recall)
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