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Posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 14:45:27
Got a terrrible flu. blah..it is hard to be sick at all but for people like me it can be a bit more challenging.. I don't have many defenses when I am sick.. had flashbacks and saw things, heard things in my head.damn it was not a fun time. I wish i didn't feel so f..ed up all the time.. i tell myself I am not a big loser.. I really am not.. have a good job, nice kids, a home of my own, (ok so the bank owns it,lol)..Still i feel so screwed up and the future doesn't look so bright to me.. I see more of the same. And why is it that it is okay for me to be in pain day after day.. The T and the P-doc accept it as a fact of my condition. " Aw.. that's hard for you, blah blah blah"."Make sure you take care of yourself, blah blah blah"..Daily physical pain wouldn't be acceptable, would it??
Okay,, I am rambling now.. thanks for listening.
Posted by rskontos on December 22, 2007, at 15:04:16
In reply to sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks, posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 14:45:27
Star. I am so sorry for you. Flashbacks, yuk......I hate them..You are not a loser. Just hurting is all. It is though hard to see this when you are physically sick too and things don't look so good. And I know i hate to take care of myself. It is like your ikid says why can't someone take care of me for once. (and hey the bank owns mine too)........
I hope you feel better soon.............and if you can't take care of yourself then hit something like a wall......oopps..i probably shouldn't have said that............here is something I hope makes you feel better..merry christmas to you and all other babblers..
<a href="http://adoniscabaret.co.uk/saucy-santa-hen-night/index.htm">click</a>
rsk
Posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 15:19:46
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks » star008, posted by rskontos on December 22, 2007, at 15:04:16
thx for the link.. reminds me too much of my ex-husband..lol.. yeah, you are right.. why can't someone else take care of me?? isn't going to happen.. it is hard to take care of myself the way I should but you know what that is like..
thought about hitting the wall but that would hurt and then I would just be hurting in more places.. then i would have to fix the wall...;(
Posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 18:07:32
In reply to sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks, posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 14:45:27
> Got a terrrible flu. blah..it is hard to be sick at all but for people like me it can be a bit more challenging.. I don't have many defenses when I am sick.. had flashbacks and saw things, heard things in my head.damn it was not a fun time.
**Llurpy got this stuff...um, I think..zyprexa mebbe? that is a sort of a quick acting AAP. Wonder if that'd help in these times?
Sorry you had such a rough time. Maybe its something to consider if you struggle badly mentally when sick? Its always harder when sick, but you seem triggered by sickness...>I wish i didn't feel so f..ed up all the time.. i tell myself I am not a big loser.. I really am not..
*OH my T would be so proud of you for refuting the loser comment! LOL!
>have a good job, nice kids, a home of my own, (ok so the bank owns it,lol)..Still i feel so screwed up and the future doesn't look so bright to me.. I see more of the same.
*sigh. That sucks. I still have the ability much of the time to have hope that things might get better some. Sometimes I lose hope. But I would say I am hopeful to some extent more often than not. I hope you can find some glimmer of hope sometimes...
>And why is it that it is okay for me to be in pain day after day.. The T and the P-doc accept it as a fact of my condition. " Aw.. that's hard for you, blah blah blah"."Make sure you take care of yourself, blah blah blah"..Daily physical pain wouldn't be acceptable, would it??
*ROFL, sorry, but my T sends me kind emails when I struggle, and one time I cut and pasted all her kind words in a mail back, and said "I DO NOT HURT" I not so sure what it was about, but I KNOW I get pissed at platitudes sometimes too. I spout them myself at people, and I MEAN them, and my T proly does too, just in small bits I find it OK, but too much just annoys me. My T keeps saying its a journey.....arrggghhh....Its just so hard to describe what its like this sh*t. And for me, its like childbirth, I forget how those really painful moments actually felt, as soon as they have passed.
Now *I* am rambling!!!!ROFL!!!
See ya,
M
> Okay,, I am rambling now.. thanks for listening.*well personally I love a good ramble. SO GOOD to see you back.
:-)
Posted by Phillipa on December 22, 2007, at 18:26:40
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks » star008, posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 18:07:32
Star got that flu too and it's not plesant at all. Everyting is in your head so much worse when sick at least for me. Phillipa
Posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 19:35:17
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks » star008, posted by muffled on December 22, 2007, at 18:07:32
Hey Muffled,,
Good to be back and not laying around.. was getting so bored.. my stuff is made much worse with illness.. I don't know about zyprexa.. called my T and asked if I could just tke some Xanax and shut the kids up for awhile.. He asked since when do I do anything but what I want to do anyway..lol I said.. well this time I am asking.. He went on blah blah blah about taking care of the inner kids and I took the xanax later anyway..
I work nites and had been up about 28 hours at that point.. i just had to sleep.. thanks muffs
Posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 19:36:10
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks, posted by Phillipa on December 22, 2007, at 18:26:40
it was hell.. hope you are feeling better.. I am almost well.. should be okay tomorrow..
Posted by Phillipa on December 22, 2007, at 21:44:41
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks » Phillipa, posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 19:36:10
I'm glad how long did it last as mine is just starting. Phillipa get some sleep it is healing
Posted by muffled on December 23, 2007, at 14:24:44
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks » muffled, posted by star008 on December 22, 2007, at 19:35:17
> Good to be back and not laying around.. was getting so bored.. my stuff is made much worse with illness.. I don't know about zyprexa.. called my T and asked if I could just tke some Xanax and shut the kids up for awhile.. He asked since when do I do anything but what I want to do anyway..lol I said.. well this time I am asking.. He went on blah blah blah about taking care of the inner kids and I took the xanax later anyway..*ROFL your T has got your number all right! Ha!
My T said the same thing to me, to tell the Dr 'HOW' I take my meds....LOL!
Glad the xanax works. Works mostly for me to, as does benedryl in small doses.
Best wishes to you.
M
Posted by star008 on December 23, 2007, at 22:29:28
In reply to Re: sorry i disappeared..got sick..had flashbacks, posted by muffled on December 23, 2007, at 14:24:44
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