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Posted by muffled on January 6, 2008, at 22:07:33
This is SO ridiculous.
I sent T email that she not allowed to change. That SHE said she did not change. I said if she was gonna change she has to warn me or I gonna freak out.
It was a stupid mail.
Anyway she gonna ask me bout it.
I always get so nervous to go back after a break ANYways. Just incase she HAS changed or some thing???I dunno.
And of course she gonna ask stuff.
I want to cancel SO bad.
I just keep telling myself it will be OK.
I feel like mutant.
Gonna miss my kids with their going back to school too.
Sucks.
Part of me is so glad to go see her too.
Can't wait.Feet shot right from under me today running on ice. Bonked my head. Landed flat on my back. Neck hurts. LOL I was sitting there thinking, 'I wonder if I knocked some sense into this head?' ROFL!!! Thats what I was thinking! Honestly.
Haven't had the beefaroni yet.
;-o
;-)
M
Posted by star008 on January 7, 2008, at 7:24:01
In reply to Now I scared to goto T, posted by muffled on January 6, 2008, at 22:07:33
muffled..
I don't think she will change that fast..I have sent emails that i really wanted back.. I had one internet where you could"unsend" it if you changed your mind.. Didn't work for all of the servers though... I would like an "unsay" server in my head and a "unthink too..lol
coming back after a break is hard for me too.. makes me nervous.. don't know why exactly
Your T sounds gret and I think it will only feel funny for a few minutes.. it will be okay
Posted by ClearSkies on January 7, 2008, at 7:27:32
In reply to Now I scared to goto T, posted by muffled on January 6, 2008, at 22:07:33
I think it's OK to be scared (and it's perfectly reasonable to be that way) to go back after a break. My return is tomorrow, and I can't even remember what we were talking about the last time we spoke - yikes! Your T is very persistent, though, Muffled. We can all see that she hasn't given up on you, and so she keeps earning your trust, no? Even though you keep thinking that you don't deserve it.
Sorry that you fell and hit your noggin on the ice. In all my romanticizing of years past when I used to live up north, I do manage to forget that just about every year, I'd have a painful and spectacular fall at some point on the ice. And what I remember most about those falls is doing the quick look-around to see if anyone else had seen it. If I was all alone, then I was OK! No witnesses! Messed up head goes back a loooong way, ha ha!
So, maybe try to be kind of neutral about today with your T - keep your expectations LOW. That way you won't yourself worked up and scared about what she'll remember to ask about. If you're not happy about the stuff she asks about, tell her it makes you feel funny? Or that you don't know? She'll get it, you know she will.
CS
Posted by Dinah on January 7, 2008, at 7:55:35
In reply to Now I scared to goto T, posted by muffled on January 6, 2008, at 22:07:33
She's not likely to change substantially or be scary. She's calm like mine, right?
I do find the first session back is often not as comfortable as normal. But this time I was surprised and it was fine. :)
Posted by muffled on January 7, 2008, at 11:02:50
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T, posted by star008 on January 7, 2008, at 7:24:01
> I don't think she will change that fast..I have sent emails that i really wanted back.. I had one internet where you could"unsend" it if you changed your mind.. Didn't work for all of the servers though... I would like an "unsay" server in my head and a "unthink too..lol
*Actually thats what I LIKE bout email. I blurt stuff out and can't get it back. Then its "out there"....just as well.
Yeah I need a better server in MY head too!LOL!
> coming back after a break is hard for me too.. makes me nervous.. don't know why exactly*yeah, I waffle. Sometimes I am so exited to see her, cuz I do miss her. But I also scared too. Ugh. Emotions, they go all over the place.
> Your T sounds gret and I think it will only feel funny for a few minutes.. it will be okay*Y'know, your right, its too funny, I go back, and its SO weird, cuz she just sits then and dives right in like I just only saw her yesterday!!! I wish I could have such continuity in my head.
Thanks,
M
Posted by muffled on January 7, 2008, at 11:10:38
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T » muffled, posted by ClearSkies on January 7, 2008, at 7:27:32
> I think it's OK to be scared (and it's perfectly reasonable to be that way) to go back after a break. My return is tomorrow, and I can't even remember what we were talking about the last time we spoke - yikes! Your T is very persistent, though, Muffled. We can all see that she hasn't given up on you, and so she keeps earning your trust, no? Even though you keep thinking that you don't deserve it.
*hmmm, you a smart cookie CS. Good luck w/going back to your T too! Ya my T is OK. I NEVER in the world thot I could say stuff I have said, or at least written and let her see...
> Sorry that you fell and hit your noggin on the ice. In all my romanticizing of years past when I used to live up north, I do manage to forget that just about every year, I'd have a painful and spectacular fall at some point on the ice. And what I remember most about those falls is doing the quick look-around to see if anyone else had seen it. If I was all alone, then I was OK! No witnesses! Messed up head goes back a loooong way, ha ha!
*ROFL!!! Me too!!!! My kid was there, and I looking to see if anybody saw, and big sigh of releife when noone saw!!!! Silly but true. My neck is sore, and oddly my jaw! But I reckon this old lady did OK.
> So, maybe try to be kind of neutral about today with your T - keep your expectations LOW. That way you won't yourself worked up and scared about what she'll remember to ask about. If you're not happy about the stuff she asks about, tell her it makes you feel funny? Or that you don't know? She'll get it, you know she will.*got another day to wait yet. I see here late morning tomorrow, Tues. She NEVER forces me to talk bout stuff, so thats OK. It just I like her to 'encourage me' to talk cuz I find it SO hard to do. I just have so much ambivalency bout looking at my stuff. I tired of being messed, but afraid to look and see whats inside.
I think I gonna focus more on getting the more concrete stuff in my life together.
Fixing house, tidying, etc.
Thanks for posting to me CS.
Hope you doing OK.
M
Posted by muffled on January 7, 2008, at 11:11:59
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T » muffled, posted by Dinah on January 7, 2008, at 7:55:35
> She's not likely to change substantially or be scary. She's calm like mine, right?
:-) Yes! She IS calm.
> I do find the first session back is often not as comfortable as normal. But this time I was surprised and it was fine. :)*Ya, that was good to see how you guys did. There's hope....
Thx Dinah.
M
Posted by Dinah on January 7, 2008, at 12:06:21
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T » star008, posted by muffled on January 7, 2008, at 11:02:50
> *Y'know, your right, its too funny, I go back, and its SO weird, cuz she just sits then and dives right in like I just only saw her yesterday!!! I wish I could have such continuity in my head.
> Thanks,
> MI think that's why it went ok this time. Maybe I'm developing continuity in my head? At least when I'm not stressed too much. But that's a start.
So there is hope?
Posted by ClearSkies on January 7, 2008, at 13:11:57
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T » ClearSkies, posted by muffled on January 7, 2008, at 11:10:38
> Hope you doing OK.
> MI'm OK, got through the holidays intact and without a slip - so far. It's the week AFTER that's a challenge for me, when we're all realizing that we came through unscathed. I can't let my defenses down for a second. It makes me tired. Going through stuff with my step daughter (I posted on Substance board about it) but she's one tough nut.
take care, Muffled.
CS
Posted by muffled on January 8, 2008, at 11:35:06
In reply to Re: Now I scared to goto T » muffled, posted by ClearSkies on January 7, 2008, at 13:11:57
Posted by moonlightsonata on January 11, 2008, at 17:48:31
In reply to Now I scared to goto T, posted by muffled on January 6, 2008, at 22:07:33
Why do you write so strangely, muffled? Sometimes it's like a poem, but sometimes you scare me because you sound confused, like you can't talk in proper sentences. It scares me because I can't see you, and I don't know if you are okay. I know you always write like that, but why??
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