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Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
so I don't have to feel this pain. my brother is lucky he doesn'thave to suffer anymore. This pain is killing me, I just wish I was dead right now. I don't know if I can handle this anymore.
Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:47:16
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
she killed my childhood, why not just finish me off. There isn't much left now that she hasn't destroyed in me. Why not just give me mercy and get it over with. I never asked to be born.
Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:52:29
In reply to Re: sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:47:16
Posted by B2chica on May 28, 2008, at 12:53:35
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
HF, are you still on prozac???
i'm serious. i'm concerned that this downslide could be in part because of that.and what do you think your brother would say to you right now if you told him he was lucky?
please i don't mean to sound harsh. i'm so worried about you and i'm kinda angry cuz i don't feel you have a fence around you protecting you. where are you're people?
YES you can handle this, and if YoU can't WE CAN for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no, no,, my HF is going no where!"mama" B2C.
Posted by B2chica on May 28, 2008, at 12:57:25
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:58:43
In reply to Re: sometimes I wish she did kill me » Happyflower, posted by B2chica on May 28, 2008, at 12:53:35
Im sorry B2, I just feel really scared right now. i hate feeling this way. I stopped prozac last Mon, on cynbalta now, it was working so far. I am just triggered into PTSD again, my body is reacting.
My husband is goign to drive me to my appointment, i can't drive right now.
Posted by llurpsienoodle on May 28, 2008, at 13:04:10
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
Hi HF,
I'm sorry you're struggling. I can't stick around on this thread for my own personal reasons, but I wanted you to know that you have my best wishes.As bad as it feels, pain is not permanent. It will ease, perhaps gradually, inperceptibly...
In the meanwhile, gather all the support you need. pdoc, T, your loved ones. your flowers. All of it.
And take good care of yourself
hugs,
-Ll
Posted by B2chica on May 28, 2008, at 13:11:37
In reply to Re: sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:58:43
here's extra hugs ((((((((((((HF))))))))))
have a good session.b2c.
Posted by Phillipa on May 28, 2008, at 16:53:23
In reply to Re: sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:58:43
Think it's the prozac although they say it last's 5-6 weeks in the body. Maybe it was your drug? Any side effects from cymbalta. Please post how your session goes. Love Phillipa
Posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 19:11:52
In reply to Re: sometimes I wish she did kill me » Happyflower, posted by Phillipa on May 28, 2008, at 16:53:23
I have a good dose of Xanax in me, so I am calmer him again tomorrow. He calmed me down a lot. I am suffering from PTSD, this is what it does when it triggers. We are going deep tomorrow, I need some relief because I am beginning to give up on myself and any hope for recovery, it seems impossible right now. We are in the moment, we need to take advantage of this. I don't feel like myself right now so I need to go to bed now.
Posted by Lucie Lu on May 28, 2008, at 20:08:06
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
Happyflower, I'm sorry that your PTSD symptoms are plaguing you. They can be so hard to deal with in the moment. But I want to tell you that yes, it can finally be resolved. When I started seeing my T 5 years ago, I was crazy with pain and fear. For me, it (my CA history) was like a cellar in my house that was dark, terrifying and I never wanted to go anywhere near it. My T took my hand and together we went down there with a flashlight, and we saw some truly terrifying things but in the end, all the lights were on and I was no longer afraid of what's down there. I can live with it and it is just part of my house, always will be. You can do the same, just keep the faith. Feel better soon. -LL
Posted by LadyBug on May 28, 2008, at 22:58:05
In reply to sometimes I wish she did kill me, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 12:44:10
(((((((Happyflower)))))))
So sorry you are having such a hard time right now. I'm thinking of you in every good way I can and sending those thoughts to you...................>>>
Posted by sunnydays on May 28, 2008, at 22:58:51
In reply to my session, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 19:11:52
Sometimes when you are this upset and off kilter, it's best to back off of the hard stuff and focus on containment and relaxation and soothing. I know the temptation to keep pushing, as that is always my first instinct, but sometimes that can do more harm than good. I wouldn't want the symptoms you are having to get worse. Might it be wise to focus on coping first, and deal with the deep stuff when you are in a better place? Again, I don't know you so I don't know, I just know that when I get like where it sounds like you are, my T often wants us to back off so that I can work on maintaining a level of functioning in my life instead of getting overwhelmed. Going too deep can retraumatize you instead of helping.
Take gentle care of yourself,
sunnydays
Posted by muffled on May 30, 2008, at 0:43:14
In reply to my session, posted by Happyflower on May 28, 2008, at 19:11:52
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