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Posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:23:38
I haven't had sex with a person for almost a year. It's soul-destroying not to have sex with anyone, and it's soul-destroying to have sex with someone I'm not completely mesmerized by.
I've been mesmerized by someone who's unavailable, completely disinterested and how stupid is THAT???
So, where to from here? I need to do something about this situation. Life's too short to spend it feeling this wasted, like I'm being wasted, not appreciated for myself. I have a good body, I have a pleasant face most of the time, I'm a beautiful person inside and people even tell me I'm beautiful outside sometimes.
I need someone.
I need to be held.
Stroked.
Sucked. (Forgive me)
Licked. (Again)
Kissed.
Fondled.And I need to give all those wonderful things back.
Oh God, help me.
And I'm not in the least bit religious.
How will I get through this day?
Posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:25:42
In reply to It's been long enough, posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:23:38
I just want to cry and cry and cry.
Where did my life take the wrong turn?
Posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:19:18
In reply to Re: It's been long enough, posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:25:42
Some say that love finds you, you don't find it....and when it does, it's not because you are looking for it....it falls into your lap.....
He's out there Susan.......I know he is.....
God, you are such a beautiful person inside and out......a man would be crazy to not notice.....
there are a lot of crazy people out there Susan..... And there are a lot of wonderful insane people who would love to love you.....
Posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:20:45
In reply to Re: It's been long enough » Susan47, posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:19:18
Not that he would have to be insane to love you...I didn't mean that.....
I meant that a crazy man wouldn't notice......but being crazy is not bad, and being insane isn't either.......ohhhh crap, I don't know what I meant, just didn't mean what it sounds like I mean....
Posted by 64bowtie on December 12, 2004, at 11:54:21
In reply to Re: It's been long enough, posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:25:42
Please promise not to get in a big d*mn hurry and climb just any 'grapevine', 'cause the guy attached to the other end of it might suck all righty, in more ways than one; in ways you don't want or need; in ways not good for you and your mind and inards...
Don't forget this passion. Let it out when the time is right. 'till then, practice, practice, practice!
A lady I know confided that she had married a nice guy that was 42 years older than her (before Viagra), to hide out from her "hot" but batterer highschool love, who she said had 9 inches of "grapevine" to climb. A botched abortion had messed up her ability to get preggers. Didn't matter, her love life with her "grandfather" aged husband required batteries to orgasm, while always alone; hubby also believed fondling her goodies was sinful so she had to tread softly not to get scorned and thrown out on her ear. After about 8 years of practice, practice, practice in private, she had discovered things that only a few women know and aren't tellin'! 15 years or so later, she frees herself of her protector and is now in the insurance business with her same aged lover. I may be the only one who understands why he has a distant stare and frozen permanent grin on his face......lol
Rod
PS: Beyond all these 'sex mysteries', we still must tackle 'coupling mysteries' (why we pick who we pick) inherent to 'relationship mysteries'!!!
Posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 22:26:44
In reply to Re: It's been long enough, posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:20:45
Well, AG, you did give me the shivers when you said he'd have to be crazy ...
I agree crazy isn't necessarily bad, if it's not forever and always. Nor is insane. Some of my most insane moments in life have reaped the best rewards as they served to strengthen my character ... what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger, maybe? Don't know any more than you do, hon.
And thank you so so much for your kind words to me today, I love that at PB we can have these affirming relationships. :]
Posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 22:31:16
In reply to Re: Susan, please promise..., posted by 64bowtie on December 12, 2004, at 11:54:21
I confess in the last few months I've learned at least one interesting thing about pleasuring myself .. two, really.
There is a problem, though, and that is that I'm not one of those people who gets turned on only by the mechanics of sex, I mean, I need an imaginary face with big soulful eyes to look into. And when I can do that, and the physical thing, it's skyrockets on and on, but probably no more than three minutes. What's WRONG with me???? I want what you have!!!
Posted by 64bowtie on December 13, 2004, at 1:02:38
In reply to Re: Susan, please promise... » 64bowtie, posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 22:31:16
> What's WRONG with me???? I want what you have!!! >
<<< This isn't where I want you to be... I wanted to give hope... I want you to find peace, freedom, and happiness...
<<< This, my dear ((((((((((Susan))))))))))) is where I am... You can be here toooo, is my wish for you...
<<< Don't knock it! It's not as prozaic as it sounds! I couldn't have been ready enough to partake of the delights if I was all bound up with troubles from my past; my dysfunctional past!
Rod
Posted by Susan47 on December 13, 2004, at 20:17:04
In reply to (((((((((Susan)))))))))), posted by 64bowtie on December 13, 2004, at 1:02:38
Rod, you're so kind to me. Thanks, for caring, anyway.
I'm not actually caught up in childhood stuff anymore, I can't believe it, for the first time in my life I feel completely free.I hope it lasts, and I get a chance to express that freedom with my sexuality, with a real, live, loving, warm, good-smelling, soft and hard, man.
Posted by adam canada on December 15, 2004, at 23:33:07
In reply to Re: It's been long enough » Susan47, posted by AdaGrace on December 12, 2004, at 11:19:18
Me me! I volunteer
Posted by susan47 on May 5, 2008, at 1:24:18
In reply to Re: It's been long enough, posted by adam canada on December 15, 2004, at 23:33:07
And 64 Bowtie, Rod, where are you lovely souls?
It's been so long, and so many things have changed.
I miss you, I miss everybody, big heavy fat f*ck*ng sigh.
Posted by sopia42 on May 5, 2009, at 12:27:55
In reply to Re: It's been long enough, posted by Susan47 on December 12, 2004, at 8:25:42
"Where did my life take the wrong turn?"
I used to ask myself that question everyday. And every day I would go to bed with no answer. I just couldn't remember where and when it all started. It's like I just woke up one day and my life was nothing.
When I received help I started thinking about where my life is today. At some point I started asking myself why it matters where or when this illness happended. And I started to recognize that I have a psychological disorder that without medical help I couldn't see any turns. All turns led to nothing and I had no choice but to ride into nothing.
Just because your life may have taken a wrong turn doesn't me you have to keep riding in the wrong direction. Registering to this web site is turning a corner in the right direction.
We are all in your corner. Use this web site as a shoulder to cry on.
This is the right turn. I know it is.
This is the end of the thread.
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