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Posted by adams on March 27, 2001, at 21:05:05
I dont know what to do, thoughts of suicide fill my head, I dont want to die, I dont want to hurt my mother, it would break her heart if I would die, I have been down for so long, you just cant live like that for years and years, it wears you out, I am worn out from the depression. I just need some relief, I need some powerful drugs to lift me out of this hole. Maybe I need ECT? I have never done that before? I just need 30 minutes of some real chemical happiness in my brain, then maybe I could remember why I should keep living.
Posted by Lexie on March 27, 2001, at 22:15:51
In reply to y, posted by adams on March 27, 2001, at 21:05:05
I have been in the same "hole" that you talk about, but you can find your way out, I did. Now Let's answer the question you ask Y? Because you are worth loving. Your Mother obviously Love's you, it would break her heart if anything happened to you and you obviously love her, now that is a awsome thing to live for. You said that you didn't want to die, but you couldn't keep suicide out of your head. I know that sometimes that dark place can become so over powerering that we see no light at the end of the tunnel. But I am here to tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel You should go back and read some of my struggles! I also know the feeling mention of being worn out, I would be so tired that I would just want to lay in the closet because it was small, dark and safe. Let's get proactive, you mention ECT, but have tried medication yet? Therapy and Medication go well together it worked well for me, but I went through a ton of medication before finding the right ones. Everyone is differn't don't give up lean on your friends here.
Let's focus on the positive things you said:
You don't want to die
You don't want to hurt your Mother
You want to REMEMBER why you should keep living
(that would make me believe you have some happy rememberances)
Hang in there, keep posting. I have been in your shoes. I am very concerned about you. I see you in that dark hole, I just hope you see that I am reaching my hand down to help you up. Lexie
Posted by ChrisK on March 28, 2001, at 5:27:20
In reply to y, posted by adams on March 27, 2001, at 21:05:05
I've been in that same pit. I actually did try to OD twice but was "saved" each time - once because I didn't take the right meds to OD and once because someone who knew I was suicidal called the policce to look in on me. IT's a terrible place to be and I don't wish it on anybody.
After my hospitalizations I found that there was one med that worked for me to clear up all of the negative thoughts. That was Zyprexa. IT's an antipsychotic but works well for depression. I would reccommend it to anyone having deep obsessive negative thoughts. It really dragged me out of a bad place.
I hope you are talking to your doctor about these thoughts. They may feel "normal" to you but they aren't. I know it's torture but try to get through the next few weeks one day a at a time and look for a good doctor or med for help.
Posted by Ted on March 28, 2001, at 13:42:51
In reply to Re: y, posted by Lexie on March 27, 2001, at 22:15:51
Thank you Lexie -- you said it better than I can imagine. We have all been in that same hole, and somehow we have all survived, if even tenuously.
Ted
> I have been in the same "hole" that you talk about, but you can find your way out, I did. Now Let's answer the question you ask Y? Because you are worth loving. Your Mother obviously Love's you, it would break her heart if anything happened to you and you obviously love her, now that is a awsome thing to live for. You said that you didn't want to die, but you couldn't keep suicide out of your head. I know that sometimes that dark place can become so over powerering that we see no light at the end of the tunnel. But I am here to tell you there is a light at the end of the tunnel You should go back and read some of my struggles! I also know the feeling mention of being worn out, I would be so tired that I would just want to lay in the closet because it was small, dark and safe. Let's get proactive, you mention ECT, but have tried medication yet? Therapy and Medication go well together it worked well for me, but I went through a ton of medication before finding the right ones. Everyone is differn't don't give up lean on your friends here.
>
> Let's focus on the positive things you said:
> You don't want to die
> You don't want to hurt your Mother
> You want to REMEMBER why you should keep living
> (that would make me believe you have some happy rememberances)
> Hang in there, keep posting. I have been in your shoes. I am very concerned about you. I see you in that dark hole, I just hope you see that I am reaching my hand down to help you up. Lexie
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