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Posted by jay on October 10, 2001, at 21:04:03
You ever recall those times when in the middle of all the crazy feelings, the fear, the screams, the pain, the anxiety, everything slowed down...like a cool breeze after a blazing hot summer day..laying in an open field, watching the sky and clouds whizz by.Man, if only we could freeze that moment in time. Freeze our emotions, our state of mind.
I find "daydreaming" helps bring me to this place. What I will do is look at pictures, and listen to music from a time I was in such a place, or mental state. It's like a place I go in my mind, and it's hard as hell to get to, but I am finding I can get there. The more I go, the better. But, again..it's tough to get to!
Now, if only I had a button I could push to take me there...I would share it with the world. :-)
Jay
Posted by Wendy B. on October 11, 2001, at 15:19:22
In reply to In The Eye Of The Storm...mental musing out loud., posted by jay on October 10, 2001, at 21:04:03
jay,
believe it or not, i was just thinking about this the other day. i have so many days, or partial days, of just bumming, feeling separate from the world, i make myself a cucoon (sp??) and don't talk to anybody, don't call anybody, just stay in and hibernate and wallow in black moods that are sooooo hard to get out of.
but, when i have good moments, moments of lightness and clarity, i wish i could just *capture* them, write them down or express them, somehow, to someone else, like: here's this beautiful sunset over the lake, the hills and the trees turning color are marvelous, how can i capture that? here's a smell, a smell of roasted coffee beans, it greets me as i come through the door when i get home from work, from the hot water i poured through the grounds, in the filter, this morning. how can i get this smell to move someone else as it does me? but then there is also the sun filtering in through the blinds, on my wood floors, it's a warm, fulfilling sight, and i never want to live anywhere else, because i'll never get that coffee smell and that light coming in again, ever, anywhere...
jay, you're right, i want to freeze it, i want to share it with the world, want to press the button you talk about to get me there. especially, as you say, when things get so bad and black and lonely...
with you 100%,
wendy
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> You ever recall those times when in the middle of all the crazy feelings, the fear, the screams, the pain, the anxiety, everything slowed down...like a cool breeze after a blazing hot summer day..laying in an open field, watching the sky and clouds whizz by.
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> Man, if only we could freeze that moment in time. Freeze our emotions, our state of mind.
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> I find "daydreaming" helps bring me to this place. What I will do is look at pictures, and listen to music from a time I was in such a place, or mental state. It's like a place I go in my mind, and it's hard as hell to get to, but I am finding I can get there. The more I go, the better. But, again..it's tough to get to!
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> Now, if only I had a button I could push to take me there...I would share it with the world. :-)
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> Jay
Posted by sar on October 11, 2001, at 15:32:36
In reply to Re: ..mental musing out loud » jay, posted by Wendy B. on October 11, 2001, at 15:19:22
yes...i finally had a moment like that this afternoon. i was sitting in the frontyard talking on the cordless phone to my suicidal friend C., who was calling from a payphone in a clinic. he hasn't had a drink for 7 days, hasn't had his AD in 3, and is frightened of the 6-month trial-period of whatver new drug it is they'll add to his mix.
we talking about death a lot. "Why are we here?" i asked. "what is life, what's the point?" "it's just a pointless phenomenon," C. said. i layed down in the grass and it sailed through me in this moment, all the green and blue and yellow of mellow october ants crawling over my barefeet and it struck me as *magical* how magical to be in these colors part of this phenomenon.
why give up on a scientific experiment when you're just doing it for fun?
i've been really down lately because i am jobless, homeless, possession-less, on probation, have bill collectors on my tail etc but last night m. was hugging me as we drank beers, j., this really pretty girl who onced kissed me, a "salt of the earth girl" drove me home in her big truck there's orange juice to drink and i'm part of this lovely phenomenon where theres lots of *kissing* and lovely craziness, and it's my favorite month, October.
Posted by susan C on October 11, 2001, at 17:49:36
In reply to In The Eye Of The Storm...mental musing out loud., posted by jay on October 10, 2001, at 21:04:03
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> You ever recall those times when in the middle of all the crazy feelings, the fear, the screams, the pain, the anxiety, everything slowed down...like a cool breeze after a blazing hot summer day..laying in an open field, watching the sky and clouds whizz by.
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> Man, if only we could freeze that moment in time. Freeze our emotions, our state of mind.
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> I find "daydreaming" helps bring me to this place. What I will do is look at pictures, and listen to music from a time I was in such a place, or mental state. It's like a place I go in my mind, and it's hard as hell to get to, but I am finding I can get there. The more I go, the better. But, again..it's tough to get to!
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> Now, if only I had a button I could push to take me there...I would share it with the world. :-)
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> JayI will take two, tall, frosty rootbeer floats please. The ones that come in the mugs from right out of the freezer, where the rootbeer freezes in a layer on the glass and the icecream and you have a long handled spoon and a straw and at the end all there is left is this creamy, rootbeery sludge that you slurp and then, burp.
Mouse with white whiskers
susan C
Posted by Mair on October 12, 2001, at 19:25:05
In reply to Re: In The Eye Of The Storm...mental musing out loud., posted by susan C on October 11, 2001, at 17:49:36
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> >Susan - I used to get those at an A&W which was all that passed in the town I grew up in for a fast food restaurant. Pre-MacDonalds, A&Ws used to have good food, or it just seemed that way.Mair
Posted by susan C on October 12, 2001, at 20:08:18
In reply to Re: In The Eye Of The Storm...mental musing out loud. » susan C, posted by Mair on October 12, 2001, at 19:25:05
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> > >Susan - I used to get those at an A&W which was all that passed in the town I grew up in for a fast food restaurant. Pre-MacDonalds, A&Ws used to have good food, or it just seemed that way.
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> MairMair, YES, and they had sloppy joes...Are mice only vegetarian???
drooling mouse
susan C
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