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Posted by crinn on December 18, 2001, at 11:54:29
My doc is trying to decide if I'm "just" clinically depressed or manic-depressive. Not sure if (when not depressed) highly energetic and optimistic qualifies as mania. But I had a really weird thing happen today, that I wanted to see if anyone else has experienced. I'm in the midst of a very bleak depressive episode, with no relief from any of my meds. Last night, my husband broke a promise which meant a good deal to me. I was angry all night, didn't sleep (which is typical of my depressions) woke up this morning feeling draggy, but got to work and then--WOW! I haven't had this much energy in months. I got done in a morning more than I've been able to do in the past month--no exaggeration. I'm still pretty mad at my husband, and was wondering if this had anything to do with this energy burst. I don't know how long it will last, but I'm enjoying every minute of it. Not looking forward to the inevitable crash,though. Anyway, anyone else out there experience this?
Posted by mgrueni on December 18, 2001, at 17:09:31
In reply to Anger as on/off switch to mania, posted by crinn on December 18, 2001, at 11:54:29
< I was angry all night, didn't sleep (which is typical of my depressions) woke up this morning feeling draggy, but got to work and then--WOW! I haven't had this much energy in months.
Anyway, anyone else out there experience this? >Yes. I do.
I even came to *use* this mechanism when I was very down but knew that I had to appear at work the next day. I didn`t sleep on purpose - to provoke a boost in energy. And you are right, the crash is inevitable and I usually feel even worse afterwards. I am not quite sure why, but not sleeping seems to have a paradox effect on me. Instead of making me drowsy and unmotivated it works like a stimulant for me. But only for 8 - 9 hours. And then the crash comes.
I donīt do that any more because I realised that I harm myself just to be functional at work for a few hours. And that`s not worth it. I think your anger has been a trigger as well. Anger makes our body ready for a *fight* - we mobilize all our *spare energy*. I am not surprised that the combination of both, staying awake almost the whole night plus this anger made you *overactive*.
Micha
Posted by crinn on December 19, 2001, at 7:37:02
In reply to Re: Anger as on/off switch to mania, posted by mgrueni on December 18, 2001, at 17:09:31
Thanks so much, Micha. And you're right. Now it is day 2, the anger has abated, and with it the energy. I hate to admit it, but it was exhilarating while it lasted. But acceptance of the grey moods and pacing myself is probably much more healthy!
> < I was angry all night, didn't sleep (which is typical of my depressions) woke up this morning feeling draggy, but got to work and then--WOW! I haven't had this much energy in months.
> Anyway, anyone else out there experience this? >
>
> Yes. I do.
> I even came to *use* this mechanism when I was very down but knew that I had to appear at work the next day. I didn`t sleep on purpose - to provoke a boost in energy. And you are right, the crash is inevitable and I usually feel even worse afterwards. I am not quite sure why, but not sleeping seems to have a paradox effect on me. Instead of making me drowsy and unmotivated it works like a stimulant for me. But only for 8 - 9 hours. And then the crash comes.
> I donīt do that any more because I realised that I harm myself just to be functional at work for a few hours. And that`s not worth it. I think your anger has been a trigger as well. Anger makes our body ready for a *fight* - we mobilize all our *spare energy*. I am not surprised that the combination of both, staying awake almost the whole night plus this anger made you *overactive*.
>
>
> Micha
Posted by mgrueni on December 19, 2001, at 13:22:19
In reply to Re: Anger as on/off switch to mania, posted by crinn on December 19, 2001, at 7:37:02
< Thanks so much, Micha. And you're right. Now it is day 2, the anger has abated, and with it the energy. I hate to admit it, but it was exhilarating while it lasted >
Why do you hate to admit it? I understand that you enjoyed feeling so *alive* for a change.
I just wanted you to know that you are not alone with this sort of experience and there`s nothing wrong with you. No need to worry, as long as you know that it`s more harmful than good for you and you donīt use it deliberately (like I did).Go and get some sleep now :o)
Best wishes,
Micha
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