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Posted by Emme on August 1, 2004, at 12:50:22
Alien Emme has left the planet. For a few days I was optimistc and energetic and sociable. Then I crashed into exhaustion and I'm headed back down into depression. I can only hope it's temporary and doesn't spiral down too badly. I'm starting to obsess again - fear, worry, fear, worry, fear, worry. Ain't no point. Fear Worry Fear Worry Hopeless Grim. May I have a new life please?
Posted by Dinah on August 2, 2004, at 9:31:47
In reply to Too good to last, posted by Emme on August 1, 2004, at 12:50:22
I hate it when the happy aliens leave my body.
Posted by gabbix2 on August 2, 2004, at 16:51:49
In reply to Re: :-( » Emme, posted by Dinah on August 2, 2004, at 9:31:47
Aww Crap Emme, I'm sorry. I hate, hate hate it when that happens. Occasionally when it happens to me I can be philosophical and think that when I find the right medication I'll get to feel that way most of the time, but more often I just think it sucks..Unfair isn't the word. It's just mean. I have noticed though that the two times I've been in depression remission it started with my feeling good only occasionally, until things evened out. I hope that's the case with you.
(((Emme)))
Posted by Emme on August 2, 2004, at 23:20:34
In reply to Re: :-(, posted by gabbix2 on August 2, 2004, at 16:51:49
Thanks Dinah & Gabbi.
I suppose if the "up" had gone too much higher, it would have slid into too much "up". But I'd like to keep a little bit of it permanently.
You're right. It's just mean. And why does a good happy mood always come with an element of overstimulation that ultimately leads to exhaustion? What's wrong with my nervous system? Why did it come strung up like an overtightened piano wire?
Posted by partlycloudy on August 3, 2004, at 7:28:41
In reply to Re: :-(, posted by Emme on August 2, 2004, at 23:20:34
((((Emme)))) When I finally had a genuinely happy day, it actually felt different from my bipolar "happy". It didn't feel as reckless, somehow. Don't worry, Emme and don't give up. Contentment and happiness are possible.
Posted by Emme on August 3, 2004, at 21:01:20
In reply to Re: :-( » Emme, posted by partlycloudy on August 3, 2004, at 7:28:41
> ((((Emme)))) When I finally had a genuinely happy day, it actually felt different from my bipolar "happy". It didn't feel as reckless, somehow. Don't worry, Emme and don't give up. Contentment and happiness are possible.
Yes, that's what I want. A sense of peace and contentment. I want *normal* energy. Not too sluggish. Not too wired or anxious. Kind of like Goldilocks and the three psychotropic meds. This one is too sedating. This one is too activating. And hopefully there will be one that is just right. A normal life seems so elusive. Thank you so much for the encouragement.
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