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Posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
after reading some people's posts? I often am. I guess I make my fair share of those posts myself.... seems I have confused a few people today.
A similar thing happens to me in a way in therapy, my T makes a comment, and only when I return home do I think "ugh, what was he meaning" and I make up all sorts of negative scenarios in my mind,..... that he doesn't like me, that he hates me, that he never wants to talk to me again...........one thing though. I have never felt a therapist does not believe me. So that is good :D
With doctors? A different story. I have caught many doctors in black and "abusive" lies so I don't really care a .......... what they think of me. They are no help anyway apart from as pen pushers and med prescribers.
blech
butterflyPS I only see the T very rarely at present due to lack of funds. That might well be changing soon though. Might keep you updated (depending on lots of things, my trust levels mostly) I will have to find a new T though sigh.
ll - if you are reading this. A thought re "honesty".... sometimes details might be changed slightly on the internet for privacy reasons (obvious) and also if unsettled by certain dynamics. I don't expect this makes much sense so I will stop here. You are very perceptive though although you don't know me well :p
Posting here is risky for me.... posting anywhere is risky. I know there are some who judge and enjoy doing so..... not here, just in life. As for automatic thoughts of being judged? I have those but not so much as I used to. I will never understand some people however much I try, so I have to learn to accept and let go.... hard for me!
This post will be here for ever........lovely thought. heh.
Posted by Phillipa on September 10, 2006, at 15:17:13
In reply to are you left scratching your head?, posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
Right now I'm going through the don't trust doc thing. I'm heading back to the Er as I don't believe the labs they gave me the other night were mine. And no doc will tell if diverticulitis is supposed to make you extremely tired. Love Phillipa
Posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:35:32
In reply to Re: are you left scratching your head? » rainbutterfly, posted by Phillipa on September 10, 2006, at 15:17:13
I understand how you feel! I have been the recipient of some ghastly screw ups (hope that word is ok here) by doctors. Can butterflies growl? grrrr.
I avoid doctors whenever I can of late.... not good I know. Something else for me to work on but not one of my major priorities, although it probably "should" be... if I want to stay alive. To be honest though.... I am not sure that I do :o(
I wish you all the luck in the world with the doctors and with your health,
speak soon,
butterfly
Posted by Dinah on September 10, 2006, at 18:26:23
In reply to are you left scratching your head?, posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
I think it's kind of natural to project all sorts of things on the blank slate of the internet. Or at least that's what my therapist told me. :)
But if you keep in mind that most people don't mean any harm, and if you think you're reading something that says otherwise, it's best to read it again and again trying to look for other possible explanations. I still get caught by that sometimes myself.
And I suspect that every time something rather obscure is said, nearly all Babblers think "Oh no! What did I do?" And nearly all Babblers did nothing at all, or there was some sort of misunderstanding.
Alexus talks about reading things and trying to give the benefit of the doubt, and I think that's a wise thing to do. If you're wrong and someone's angry, you'll find out eventually (probably) and if not, you'll have saved yourself a lot of fretting over nothing.
And this from someone who used to be accused of thinking everything written was about ME. :) (Not that I don't still think so privately, from time to time.)
Posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 20:38:44
In reply to Re: are you left scratching your head? » rainbutterfly, posted by Dinah on September 10, 2006, at 18:26:23
Thanks Dinah .... I will think about this.
Silenced, and not by you
ButterflySo ironic that .... oh why bother even trying to express my pain. maybe another time
Posted by llrrrpp on September 11, 2006, at 10:13:34
In reply to are you left scratching your head?, posted by rainbutterfly on September 10, 2006, at 15:00:24
>ll - if you are reading this. A thought re "honesty".... sometimes details might be changed slightly on the internet for privacy reasons (obvious) and also if unsettled by certain dynamics. I don't expect this makes much sense so I will stop here. You are very perceptive though although you don't know me well :p
>Posting here is risky for me.... posting anywhere is risky. I know there are some who judge and enjoy doing so..... not here, just in life. As for automatic thoughts of being judged? I have those but not so much as I used to. I will never understand some people however much I try, so I have to learn to accept and let go.... hard for me! "
risky for me too. risky for all of us, in our own special ways. sometimes not posting is riskier, and sometimes, I just don't care about the risk. I tend to be more paranoid when I'm more depressed. I get convinced that pdoc and T are sending an ambulance to pick me up in the middle of the night, so I better wear clean underwear. How f*cked up is that?
I'm sorry to hear about lack of T support. That's really tough. I'm glad you're here for babble-support. Keep posting. Don't worry so much about what others will do to you, or will think of you. Come here to heal YOU. That's the best advice I have for you. Oh, and maybe you can get together with people in real life. Also hard to do, but once I started getting slightly less paranoid, I confided in one person, and that didn't cause the world to crash, so I confided in another, and then another. It's okay, really.
I'll be around. sporadically, but you never know...
best,
-llp.s. it's raining here. ugh.
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