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Posted by your#1fan on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
in these past 4 days i have never been thought such a depressing part of my life. Im so depressed, i feel horrible, im losing friends. Whats going on, well its fear of failure, and where i am. I feel really like just tuning out reality. Even duplin, well it just makes me nervous wreck and in a bad mood.
I hope i get out of this darkness.
Im too depressed to do things, but i have to do them, i get stimulanted and then get in a BAD mood.
Oh god, let all the violens start playing in the background. I hate my brain for doing this to me,to let me down, to let me fall behind, to let me fail.
I hate what my depression is doing to me.
Posted by Netch on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
In reply to depression, posted by your#1fan on November 29, 2007, at 22:54:31
I think you need to quit Deplin.
If SSRI is failing you should try to combine it with Abilify./Netch
Posted by Polarbear206 on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
In reply to depression, posted by your#1fan on November 29, 2007, at 22:54:31
> in these past 4 days i have never been thought such a depressing part of my life. Im so depressed, i feel horrible, im losing friends. Whats going on, well its fear of failure, and where i am. I feel really like just tuning out reality. Even duplin, well it just makes me nervous wreck and in a bad mood.
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> I hope i get out of this darkness.
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> Im too depressed to do things, but i have to do them, i get stimulanted and then get in a BAD mood.
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> Oh god, let all the violens start playing in the background. I hate my brain for doing this to me,to let me down, to let me fall behind, to let me fail.
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> I hate what my depression is doing to me.
>I have been reading some of your post on and off. Have you considered giving Lithium a try? As I recall, don't you have a diagnosis of Bipolar? From what I have read, you have all the indicators. Lithium should help with the concentration problems you have and ease your depression and even you out. What is paramount is getting the mood cycling under control FIRST and IF you have a comorbid ADHD this should be addressed last. You are young, and a diagnosis of ADHD verses bipolar can present with very simular symptoms and is tricky to diagnose. You will not get any relief unless you deal with one at a time. It may very well be that you have bipolar and not ADHD. You have been given some good advice from some others and I hope you are taking it seriously. You remind me of someone else that I gave plenty of advice to and I was very frustrated with. Please don't take this as an insult, I know that you are frustrated as well with your situation. I stronly suggest that you keep a daily log of your moods. If you are taking a stimulant now, be aware that it can exacerbate your moods if your bipolar is not under control. With the approach of antidepressant use with bipolar, it can be very tricky depending on how far you swing to the right side of the spectum. They can also exacerbate you mood cycle in higher doses. Remember, Less is best to start with and go frome there. My hope for you is to get back to a normal life and enjoy your youth in college. Talk with you doctor and make sure you are seeing a p-doc who specializes in mood disorders.
PB
Posted by Phillipa on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
In reply to Re: depression » your#1fan, posted by Polarbear206 on November 30, 2007, at 10:35:24
Excellent advise from polarbear and keep those energy drinks down if you consume them and any caffeine. Phillipa
Posted by your#1fan on December 1, 2007, at 0:17:13
In reply to Re: depression, posted by Phillipa on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
i may stop, it doenst have any effect. Well a small stimulating, but irribility effect. You know i may just have to let it have some time. But netch, these depression spells about feeling im going to fail on everything is horrible.
I get really panic and start almost have tears like im a kid.
I had an episode like that today, its stress, and im in my early 20's...well i dont know how to handle reality with out panicing, or going crazy.
Posted by your#1fan on December 1, 2007, at 0:37:29
In reply to Re: depression » your#1fan, posted by Polarbear206 on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
Listen, thank you so much for the post you wrote. The only reason im not going to lithium is because, well let me give you a good desciption of me, just a blunt example. I like to laugh, but i lose stuff, like my keys, and people think its funny, its not to me because my life is so stressful because my "absent" mind causes problems. I definerltly would not apply for a job for the government, like CIA, i would not make it.
But im really fun, but i have taken things that tune your emotions out and they just dont work for me, they make me a zombie, and i dont feel im "with life" im in some drug world.
Enegy drinks.........i would chose an enregy over alcohol any day! it boosts your mood. I have an energy drink, well i just learned a lesson, do not drink Red Bull's with Duplin, it will make you off this earth (nerve wise) cant concentrate, act nuerotic, have headache's....
but right now im litterly cannot drink energy drinks because they react with duplin.
Oh, the duplin does give me a boost....but not a mood boost. It just increases the energy prozac gives you. By its self it does nothing.
Polarbear, what my main problem is, i have ADHD to the MAX! and when heavy problems like 6 page papers are due, i cant even know what to write, im out of it, im so freaking, i sit at the screen and do not know what to put down.... (for the paper) then i have this huge emotional moment (some disturbing emotional outbursts, and depression) that im a failure. Today, and a few weeks back, i have been in this "darkness" im going to fail, deep depression, i dont show it, but it is very disturbing, i cannot shut off the negitive thoughts im feeling.
I took a xanax today, listen, its good for some anxiety but not for thoughts. Seroquel i think will shut that stupid thinking up. But i still have to take xanax because of panic attacks, mixed with depression.
Alrighty, thats it. And sometimes i have trouble responding back because of alot of crap i have to do. and cant really sit down and write back, until night. So its not like im just tuning you out....hell no because if that happened i would stop getting responses.
Thank;)
yourfan
Posted by your#1fan on December 1, 2007, at 0:41:15
In reply to Re: depression, posted by Phillipa on November 30, 2007, at 22:43:51
Oh thanks, you havent disowned me, no i think i was just being a little hypersynsative.
Dont worry, no more energy drinks. Because of duplin's stimulanting effects (by the way with prozac it just boosts a little so you have some energy going) thats it. No real mood boost.
Thanks for responding to my post.
Email?
and hold yu guys, im not taking any kind of prescription stimulant. I dont know why people think that. Guess its because its known to make people moody.
UreFan
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