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Posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:41:52
i think i'm a little bit burned out...
things have been going really well this semester with respect to my working. i haven't at all been caught up in the horrible procrastination that plagued me around my thesis. so that has been... wonderful.
but failed labs... then lots of down time recovering from those, yeah. then that failed test... well... i didn't fail it... but only just passed it. which... hurt. rather a lot, actually. working really hard but still not being able to do equations. like every one needs a new math fact that i didn't know... every one... so work as i do i can't do any of them...
only it really is not that bad. lots of the exam questions will be conceptual. definitions. or little bits i can do. balancing equations or identifying the hydrocarbons or saying which is most negative or drawing a face centred cubic packing unit (ffs - for reals???) so... if there are a few questions... say... 10 marks worth... of how many grams of propane you need to cook a pig with x specific heat capacity in a perfectly insulated oven at constant pressure... or whatever... and i simply can't see how it fits into the equations i've got, even... (because i don't f*ck*ng well know all the f*ck*ng different ways there are of rearranging equations) then... whatever.
sigh.
i'm just feeling a little burned out... i think it honestly has been good for me to have taken some time off from things. to have a half day in court tomorrow even. sigh. something a bit different to do...
i'm a little worried that i'll get into such a state about it beforehand then when i'm actually in the exam i'll just hit my limit and give up. like... f*ck it. i don't even care anymore. i can't even... think about it properly. just... had enough. i might... i need to think about something nice i can do for myself on friday night. something... relaxing... i need to nurture myself through this...
animal biology next semester. that will be fun. i'll be good at it. i will. it's all going to be okay.
Posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:59:54
In reply to little bit burned out, posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:41:52
actually... a huge part of it has been that there is a terminology cluster f*ck about oxidation. there is 'oxidation number' and so you can talk about how a metal is oxidized (it's oxidation number goes up e.g., Na1+) as it loses an electron and how oxygen is reduced (it's oxidation number goes down O2-) as it gains a couple electrons... and on and on the book does go...
but the way our lecturer talked about it (and the way the website goes) it says that metals are reductants (because they lose electrons - the number of electrons they have is reduced) and oxygen is oxidized insofar as it gains electrons.
and then there are 'oxidizing agents' which (best i can figure) are reduced.. and 'reducing agents' which are oxidized.
and everyone agrees about where the electrons are going... but the terminology is all f*ck*d up. and i spent ages sorting that out (going through a process of emailing the lecturer with 'all your lecture notes are backwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!') and... the website people being all like DON"T USE ALL THOSE TERMS IN THE SAME SENTENCE BECAUSE YOU MAKE IT SOUND CONFUSING!!
and nobody wants me to write an essay on this :( i just have to pick the 'reductant' or the 'oxidant' out of a given equation. write half reactions.
so batteries are a problem. because i still have to figure out what's up... argh. which is the reductant and where the electrons are going and which way the current is flowing.... argh.. round and f*ck*ng round. that's the problem. round and f*ck*ng round. where do they start from? where were the electrons in the first place? is there even agreement on that? giving and taking and giving and accepting and donating and... there needs to be a single f*ck*ng convention about a fixed point. surely? like, uh, y is up. if, uh, anything is.
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i'm cranky... because reading textbooks is fun for me. work that doesn't feel like work... that just gives me conceptual understanding... that usually makes all those conceptual questions really easy for me. only now i glare at the textbook warily.
because, uh, the lecturer wrote the exam... and the website... will be the website for next year, too...
sigh.
animal biology won't be like this. i swears. i... sounds like i have a good shot of getting some accommodations for the labs. we do heaps of stuff with rat tissue... hrm... ick? not sure yet... i... i want to feel wonder about labs... chemistry should have been like that :(
i still don't know whether water cools at a constant rate or whether it gets slower as it approaches room temperature. anyone??
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i was going with the later... but maybe... maybe... cooling... isn't like a chemical reaction... i mean.. it isn't like there is build up of product... though maybe in an odd way it is like the reactant becomes less (less moving with high kinetic energy). perhaps...
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oh... reading government documents about the health system in this country... will come as sweet relief. sigh. they did tell me so...
Posted by alexandra_k on June 24, 2014, at 0:29:05
In reply to Re: little bit burned out, posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:59:54
http://www.womensweightlifting.co.uk/weightlifting-complements-autism/
like me...
except my interest has flagged. i can't lift when it is just me and the bar anymore. always some guy gets up in my line of sight or in behind for his line of sight with him and me and the mirror.
i've taken to muay thai with a gym ball in the squash court. only there are a couple panels along the front bottom... and today the ball tore on a screw that stuck out. so...
there is no... solitary... in the gym. hardly ever. variable. i don't know what to say... i... want a floor in a medium density town-house kinda thing, i think. with a roof. need something sturdy for a platform one day.
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