Posted by Mattias on January 2, 1999, at 18:36:37
In reply to Hey, want some company, Nancy?, posted by racer on January 2, 1999, at 18:32:31
> My life is in about the same place as yours sounds to be. I'm profoundly depressed, the meds are not working well, and I wish I could see the future. If there really is to be more of this hell, I don't want to be here for it.
> The medication is not working, though it is helping. But the side effects are unmanageble. I don't even want to eat, because I'm so very nauseous after eating anything at all (dry crackers are enough to set my stomach off.) I constantly feel as though I've stuck my finger in a light socket, which is not pleasant at all. My memory is so very bad that I can't even remember whether I've got the pill bottle open to take the stuff or because I've just taken it, which doesn't make for happy compliance with the treatment plan. I'm sleeping either three disturbed hours or eighteen hours a day. And the wretched doctor available to me is dreadful.
> I'm also not functional right now. Showering is an accomplishment, and let's not talk about my housekeeping.
> The only arguably good thing I can point to in my life is that I'm still here. THere is a chance that it can get better, and if it does, I'm here to see it. I'm not even sure that I think that a good thing, but let's pretend.
> Here's my discovery of the week: THe National Depressive Manic Depressive Association has local support groups that meet in various areas around the country. The people there are very supportive, because they all know how bad it is for them. Yeah, you'll be hanging around with crazy people, but at least they won't think you're weird... It really helped me to be around others who could empathize. The national group has a website, with contact information about local groups. Maybe it would help you, too. How much could it hurt to try it?
> Good luck, and my best wishes for relief for what that's worth.When speaking about the same boat...
In may this summer I graduated from a school where I read computer
science. So now I was ready for the University(at laest I thought so).
In june I a got message from the University which said that I was welcome to begin there. I wanna take a "Master of Science"-degree.
So in august I moved to an appertment near the new University, which
is about 120 kilometers from my old school and my old home.
At the same moment I moved I started to feel breathless, it always
felt like I was running out of air. My concentration was poor and
didnīt really recognized myself. I was scared and wondered what the
hell is wrong with me? The intro-day at the University was three days away and I tried to calm myself down with alcoholics.
Anyway I survived these three days and I was on the intro-day.
But I was so anxious, thought I would panic any second.
It was horrible. So after three -terrible- days in my new apartment,
iīm moving back to my old home(mom and dad). Well back home I met a
psydoc who gave the diagnose: Panic disorder an depression.
The doc gave me Prozac for an eight week trial, but I didnīt
responded so now I am on Efexor 75mg. a day.
And thatīs where I am now. I really hope the drugs will help so I
maybe start it all over next year.
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