Posted by v on April 5, 1999, at 6:40:11
In reply to drugs, brain dead, and weight gain, posted by here on April 3, 1999, at 14:21:58
> so why bother ? still here but not sure why
i guess, for me, since i AM here, i've got to try something/anything to lessen the pain, the apathy, the hopelessness
but sometimes it gets so bad that even thinking of killing myself takes too much energy... but of course, i think i am a chicken... REALLY scared of a failed attempt that leaves me impaired or disabled - physically &/or mentally - at then truly at the mercy of the world at large
when i am able to write to you, then i know that it is not so bad... and there is some relief in the writing
there are no real words of comfort - let it wash over you - try not to hold onto it - keep writing, keep writing, keep writing... let the wave recede
v
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thread:4364
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