Posted by v on May 7, 1999, at 6:40:45
i don't mean to whine - although perhaps i do - i feel VERY alone - very depressed and completely without resources...
my eating's begun to be out of control... i can't fall asleep at night regardless of how tired i am - so i eat some more (a classic response of mine) - it's like i fight falling asleep
i've upped the dose on the topamax to 50mg but it doesn't appear to do anything - yet earlier when my eating was cleaner i thought i felt 25mg when i took it
i'm starting to get scared of all the meds i stuff inside me hoping for something to change because nothing really does... i'm tired of trying...
i've asked questions here and not gotten any answers and believe me, i DO NOT believe anyone here owes me anything so i'm not complaining about that... we're all here just trying to get by, doing the best we can... i know that this list doesn't exist to serve me...
i'm considering tapering off my meds and seeing where i am - my next appt is the end of the month but this doctor isn't someone who can advise me (i'm the one coming to him with ideas about my treatment)
it's been hard to reach out here but it's getting worse each day... i don't even kow why i'm writing this.. i certainly don't want to hear the usual "hang in there' - i've been hanging in there my whole life... i'm tired and i'm angry of hanging (self pity's terrible isn't it... :)
regards,
v
poster:v
thread:5702
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