Posted by PL on July 12, 1999, at 8:38:50
In reply to Re: Racer....., posted by Racer on July 11, 1999, at 21:47:27
Your so nice to me Racer, that I feel I owe you an explanation. Let me give you some background.
I've been uncomfortable and depressed all my life. I remember going to the doctor as 10 an telling him I felt anxious. As a teenager I was anorexic. Have been hospitalized for mental conditions 3 times. My parents died in my early 20s and I have no relationship with my only sibling (brother).
A psychiatrist gave me lots of serax and stelazine. A bad experience with a psychologist after 1.5 years counseling because he got a "crush" on me and turned me over to a jerk I hated and as a result, I "cured" myself by learning to compartmentalize my depression.
After the death of my father in law, the last link to any family except my husband and daughter (age 15) I lost some of my compartmentalizing abilities and started to fall apart. My job offered insurance so started on Zoloft which after the initial boot up period gave me something I never had before.....contentment. Unfortunately it pooped out after one month. Increasing the strength just brought on too may side affects. Thereafter numerous others had to many side effects or no results. I had pretty good results with remeron, but at first felt more stoned than any illegal I had ever tried and after a week my corporal tunnel became intolerable.
Now I'm on wellbutrin 400mg/day and kolopin 1mg/day. I the well is helping me with cognitive abilities, (I must have had ADD all my life but learned to compensate,) but not with depression. I have a bad case of social anxiety so on came the klon but I think its just making me more depressed. I am going to ask to add some effexor. (Tried that before but at a therapeutic dose raised my blood pressure too much.) Perhaps this combo will work. I wish that moclobemide would be approved. I want to try a MAOI but could not do without blue cheese, pickled herring, spicy meats, etc.
poster:PL
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