Posted by claudeah on July 17, 1999, at 16:25:40
In reply to Re: How does everyone survive????, posted by Jeff H. on July 17, 1999, at 10:06:05
Hi,
I can sort of relate. I'm bi-polar and learned, even before I was diagnosed, that any major change would knock me out of my depression and send me into mania. So I've moved around the country---but---I wish I had parents to move back with. My mom died when I was 17 and my dad moved out and left me with the mortgage a few months later. Even though he remarried, I didn't feel like it was home, so when I moved 1,200 miles away for work and the depression struck to the point of almost being fired, I put on a 'happy mask' got a new job and moved 600 miles further. Felt myself start to go down again and found another job 1,500 miles closer to 'home'. After my dad died I became "hypo-manic" and then declined rapidly......what saved my job is that I was manic when I started working here (it also helps that it is a labourious process to fire someone). What saved me was that I was sick of running and finally went for help.
There is nothing wrong with going home. You are ill and need 'mothering' (along with therapy, meds, etc.) until you get stable and having a supportive family and maybe a few old friends would help facilitate the process.
Good luck and there are lots of people out here who have been through the same thing and have survived and are here for you.
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> > How does everyone survive financially while going through AD trials??? I have been trying different AD's and can not seem to stay in work. My life has gone kabluii right in front of my face and I can't seem to do anything about it. My financial pressures and the depression don't mix. By next month my credit rating will blow up and I won't be able to pay rent, I can't get or hold a job because of lack of confidence or energy. I don't know what to do? I don't want to be irresponsible or for that matter end up in the streets but, I can't muster up the energy to prevent it. I've gone to my family and they have been helping but, I've worn out my welcome. My friends have been trying to help but, I just can't seem to help myself. My independence is very important to me but the only way I can get out of this situation is to move 3000 miles back to my parents, which in turn will put me into a reactive depression for losing my independence. I feel like I'm in a rock and a hard place and I have no one to blame but myself! Have not had a date or sex in 14 months, can't hold a job, do not know what I want to do, can't seem to tolerate the medications, blown all my money, etc. etc.. Running out of hope.
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> > Strengths:
> > Good looking, nice, intelligent, friendly
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> > Weaknesses:
> > Lack of confidence, low energy
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