Posted by Laura on September 11, 1999, at 12:21:27
I appreciate your input, although I have to admit, I need to reread it several more times to fully understand all of it! :) I would love to be off all medication; actually the only thing I'm on is the anafranil, but in the past I've tried many other meds for ODC. Whenever I have been doing good, (feeling "normal") for a long period of time, I think it is time to go off of it. THAT is when I truly see how my like is/was without it. I am close to 40 now, and when I think that my 20's and early 30's could'be been much more enjoyable, safer, and more content...it saddens me that it took so long to find out about OCD and meds. I cannot seem to function without it, so if thats what finding happiness in a pill is about, well, I guess I'll have to agree. The times I do try to off of it, I literally do not sleep for nights. This on top of nightmarish thoughts intruding in your mind every few minutes is enough to do a person in. I somewhat understand your feelings from being medicated against your will at the age of 13. Not first hand, but my daughter went thru a similar situation. Due to many bouts with the law, and bipolor swings, she was hospitalized and put on lithium. It turned her against medication so drastically that she will not take anything now, even though I do not feel that is the best decision. For myself, and the situation of not sleeping and "hearing" every movement in my head, again I ask: How can I be told it is not addicting when I simply cannot seem to get off it? Use another medication to help? Does begin to seem like an endless journey.
poster:Laura
thread:11417
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