Posted by Janet on September 18, 1999, at 18:04:52
In reply to Re: Mixed state, posted by jamie on September 18, 1999, at 12:22:52
> I understand. Believe me. It is darn near impossible...actually, I take that back...it is totally impossible to relate the feelings to someone who hasn't been there. I could try to explain my illness and how I feel till I'm blue in the face, and all I would get is blank looks and skepticism. Like I have to defend myself or something. Unless a doc has been mentally ill, even their best efforts cannot relate. But I can relate. I hear ya. I too just want to go away and come back when I'm better. But over time I've realized first that I cannot explain it to someone else, so I don't even try anymore, and second, that I have to go on and do the best I can. I have come to rely on myself and God. If I get help from others, great. But I don't expect it anymore. I don't count on it. And I don't ask for it. I guess it all has to do with the process of coming to terms with the problems we have. Just wanted to say, I hear ya, I'm with ya. Some of us DO understand, and you aren't alone.
THANK YOU. I have this intense urge to explain how I feel, as if that will make it all go away or solve it. I know on the outside I look pretty ok, but in my head are thoughts and imaginations. I'm a pretty calm person usually, but I feel irate and like yelling at every injustice that comes along. I feel like flying and being creative yet sleeping forever. I just want to take a handful of pills until the hurricane is over. My doc. is out of town until Oct. 5. so I'm just upping all my meds. each night hoping in a few days I'll reach theraputic level.Janet
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