Posted by Noa on October 3, 1999, at 17:07:42
In reply to Noa, did you get out of the house this week-end..., posted by Janice on October 3, 1999, at 13:09:47
Thanks, Janice.
Realistic...let's see. I guess what I mean is acknowledging that it is chronic and cyclical, because I used to hang on to the hope that "this episode will be the last" and then I won't have depression. Now I know that that hope was part of the problem. It is hard to explain. I guess it made me live in fear and experience an extreme sense of failure each time I got depressed, because I had hoped it was gone forever. Now, I am working on accepting that it is something in my life. I am hopeful that I can get it more or less under control with meds, but I don't expect to be able to be med free. I don't really know if that hope is realistic, but I gotta go with it. Learning from people here about all the options has helped.
Yes, I got out. I went out yesterday and did some errands, and even bought myself some clothes. Today I was supposed to get together with a friend, but had a bad stomach cramp, I think from some stuff I ate yesterday. I am very disappointed, because I was feeling like going out, which you know is a recent development, and it feels like I missed out on a great day--great weather, being outside with a friend. Oh well.
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