Posted by Noa on October 6, 1999, at 21:44:07
In reply to Re: Red Face - YIKES!!, posted by Bob on October 6, 1999, at 0:36:26
Blushing's not my thing, but I get the shaky voice and lightheadedness when speaking in front of a group. Back in college I was the silent student in class who only spoke when called on. I have grown to be quite vocal in work situations, and as long as the speaking is just your ordinary meeting discussion, I am ok. But as soon as all eyes are on me, the "speaker", ie giving a presentation, etc., I get the shaky voice, light head, and have even dissociated a bit. Once in graduate school, when giving a presentation, I put the wrong transparency on the overhead projector, which flustered me, so that I lost my place in my note cards. I looked down at the card, and even tho I could read it, I had no idea what it meant, it was like a foreign language. I felt like I had no idea what I was doing, had no idea what I was doing there standing in front of the class, had no idea where I was, and had no idea who I was. It was probably all of two seconds or so, but it felt like minutes.
With the shaky voice, once it starts to shake, it has a way of increasing exponentially, because I become aware of the shaky voice, which makes me more anxious. I get fearful of being inarticulate, which is worse on antidepressants, because I get bad word retreival problems.
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