Posted by Noa on December 21, 1999, at 16:47:29
In reply to Re: in case you're wondering...Noa, posted by Tom on December 21, 1999, at 11:50:34
Thanks, Tom.
I think I could put the whole supermarket fiasco in perspective fairly easily, it is just that my physiological self couldn't--ie, the tears and feeling ashamed kicked in big time, on the spot.
As for depressed moods, I know they can pass, but the problem is my life has been a pattern of ups and downs, and the ups haven't even been very "up" , so I can't say it evens out at all, not that it ever does. So, when I start to feel better, the anxiety kicks in and takes over--"will this improvement last? will it fade and be overtaken by that damned depression again?" etc. etc. Every little "sign" of backsliding is a source of terror. And I am completely intolerant of any depressed or low mood "contaminating" my improving mood. I am working to change this phobia because Iknow it is a terrible way to live and can make the whole illness even worse.
Connecting to you guys helps so much.Thanks for the encouraging words. And BTW, I don't think you have to be religious to find wisdom in the Bible, afterall it is a classic piece of literature.
poster:Noa
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