Posted by juniper on January 16, 2000, at 1:14:29
In reply to KELLY: Hang in there: We're here, posted by dove on January 15, 2000, at 18:54:11
Kelly,
i am sorry that you are in such pain now. not only are you dealing with depression, but you've the death of someone close to you heavy on your mind also. these feelings (i believe), as ridiculous as it seems, they have a point. they are telling you something...maybe it is that you need to grieve, maybe it is that you need a rest, maybe you need to talk until it's all out there...
don't dismiss your feelings by denying their, and your, worth.can you make a pact with your husband or a good friend, or, if you feel comfortable, with us, that when you reach an 8 on the scale of unbearable urge, that you will contact him, her, us? your perspective and rationality are skewed by sorrow and pain, and you do not want to make such a decision with a skewed vision. can you do this?
please, please, please keep in touch. we are worried and our hearts reach out to you because we know.
my prayers are with you.juniper
> Kelly - How are you doing? Do not do anything about those hopeless feelings just yet, we need you to talk to us. We want you to unload all those bad feelings. All the dark tunnel-visions where no light exists and you run and run and get nowhere fast, those feelings are real and legitimate. I know you have such a struggle right now, I've read your posts and my heart screams for you. It is so incredibly hard to see the future when you're in that dark place, I know. And it's close to impossible to imagine life lifting that heavy burden from inside your being. I cannot speak to you with my voice, I cannot hold you with my arms, but we are here and we care deeply about how you're feeling, how you're living right now.
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> You are not alone, we are here and we understand what a struggle it is to hold on. But you must, you need to reach out for that safety net, it rests on you. It is an additional responsibility, a burden, but it can't be avoided. You need to make that decision to reach out for the hands stretching towards you. You are precious, you are remarkably made, you are a soul, a spirit, a beautiful creation, whether anyone respects that or not. We have all felt the hopelessness, the failures, you are not alone, I promise you. And those feelings run down so deep, don't they? They are so real, you can feel them. Let those deep feelings go, let them escape, let them fall in an avalanche around you, so that you can help yourself.
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> Please take care, my thoughts and prayers are with you. Please let us know if you need more support, we really are listening.
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> dove
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