Posted by george o on January 17, 2000, at 1:40:38
i've been right on the verge of ending it; no meds have worked in the last two years, laying around depressed has caused me to get fat and out of shape with very high blood pressure and i can't tolerate blood pressure meds (they make me more depressed) i let a friend talk me into going to a club nearby, what a difference! even while i listened to the greatest blues anywhere i still had this voice inside my head screaming "i want to die", until i smoked a few joints with the band between sets, what a difference! i even met a guy who can supply me some good mexican weed, (the green stuff often makes eme feel drugged). i think i need to spend what time i have left on this earth listening to blues and smokiing pot, it beats laying on my bet waiting to die. By the way, this lady carolyn wonderland sings like janis joplin and plays like eric clapton, i thought i was back in san francisco '68, who knows, i might get the nerve to take my guitar to a jam session. all i need now is a womon who doesn't mind driving if i get too wasted. george
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