Posted by Jim on January 21, 2000, at 21:46:20
In reply to Re: Time-out, posted by Ty on January 21, 2000, at 10:54:19
> > Are you on weed dude?
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> If not maybe you should start...I had a chronic depression for many years that I discovered was marvellously relieved, in the short term, by marijuana. There were issues, primarily marital conflict, primarily anger; with the pot, we could talk. I used it, especially to get through the holidays in a way that was not such a bummer for the family, for several years. Then I noticed it began to trigger mania, eventually lasting for several weeks or months following even a single joint. I finally was compelled to leave my wife (just got to damn mentally ill to continue to function) and ended up back with my family of origin in a manic state. I quite resented my brother's attempts to get me hospitalized against my will; fortunately for me, it didn't go anywhere. I was, however, manic, and quite resistant to intervention in just the way scott described earlier in this thread, in his descriptions of typical mania. My brother, by the way, fed me some really strong weed the day I arrived home, exacerbating and prolonging my manic state. He refused to believe that it was essentially marijuana caused, saying marijuana doesn't do that. The whole thing did however cure me of attempting to get relief with marijuana. I met another woman during my year long manic sojourn who was very anti-drug in a classical conservative way, and reminded me of and restored me to that value system. I regained the capacity to work, which I had lost for several years, after stopping the marijuana, and, I think more importantly, living with the other woman for about six months. My wife (from whom I had been legally divorced for many years)tracked me down and wanted me back, saying we were actually not fully legally divorced, because I had not signed the papers. Acting out the character defect of passive subjection to abuse that was the root cause of all the trouble, I returned to her. After trying for another year, I left her and married the woman I had met during my manic decompensation. It has now been about six months. My mania ceased about four months after I stopped the marijuana, and has not returned, except for very minor trends of a few hours or a day or two, and not at all in several months. My depression--which was massively handicapping for twenty years--lifted after I met the other woman, even during the year I tried again with my wife. It has not returned.
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