Posted by justin groom on January 28, 2000, at 19:14:31
In reply to Re: artists and depression (discussion fodder), posted by Adam on January 28, 2000, at 17:50:10
well i am an illustrator not a poet, so bear with me. growing up i was always the center of attention, and i always put on a show. people would always ask for an autograph, saying i would be famous some day, ha- only after i kill myself, maybe.
i would go through the manic phase of depression fueled by drugs and alcohol while working, i guess it was expected of me. i proceeded to alienate my clients and developed a 'bad rep" as a artist / illustrator. always going over-budget and time, although the end results were crowd pleasers :).
i now do computer work, and have been fighting depression for a while.i have no insurance, so i frenquently go off meds for a while. now on remeron for 2 days. i want to get my act back in gear to do artwork again, becuase everybody says i am wasting a natural talent. but i just don't have my act together enough just to climb outta bed every day....
they say their is no greater burden than great potental, and i believe i have delusions of grandeur.
i have no desire to draw at the moment but think about it all the time, i do tend to try to live in a dream world,(hence i try to sleep alot) and the remeron seems to enhance that for now... heheh.
someday i'll get my act in gear again.
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