Posted by Michael on January 29, 2000, at 14:51:16
Iv'e been severely depressed for years desperate for
help, suicide seems a pleasant option.
I have extensive degenerative disc disease, always in
excruciating pain, I take pain meds, Norco, Oxycontin,
xanax, ambien, tried paxil once, slept for 3 days straight
while first on it, gave it up after a month.
My pain docs could really give a shit.
My family doc is really compassionate,he has helped
me with my pain, The surgeons all say Im inoperable
too far gone, they don't want to sign my medical papers
so I can retire, I worked for a large school system in
Florida for 23 years, all i need is for 2 doctors to sign my
paperwork stating how bad I am, Yeah Really trying to
pull teeth with an icepick. Being shuffled from place
to place, all with the same answer, You are inoperable.
Well can you sign my paperwork and let me retire medically,
Oh I can't do that You have to see so & so.
Well I go and the same answer I cant sign your medical
papers.
What the HELL do I do now.???
Iv'e been on leave of abscence for 9 months now, still
in pain but not working, or with any income.
Depression is so bad, Its like another world with me
trying to look into it. I hate the feeling of all these meds
but I have so much pain I cant stand it much longer.
I told one doc that suicide is always on my mind, do you
think they care. Just Go Away.
I need some help, for pain ,retirement, depression,before I
truly go nuts. I have sat on my porch with my gun many
times and was to scared to do it, but one day I will just
do it. Can someone out there help me.??
papy@bellsouth.net
poster:Michael
thread:20007
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