Posted by bob on March 5, 2000, at 11:29:15
In reply to help, posted by rose3700 on March 5, 2000, at 7:17:42
Rose,
Your father and step-mother don't know squat.
(and you can tell them I said so ;^)
My dad raised me to be a typical stubborn Irishman. Even though he was highly educated and he worked as a school principal, meaning he had to deal with kids with problems all the time, he had a irrational, uninformed "thing" against psychological practices of any type. Meds probably the worst -- they meant you were weak.
So, as a result, that attitude (instilled in me) was a big part of me not getting the help I needed until I was 34. And now part of the burden I need to deal with is the anger and guilt over wasting all that time.
It's all very stupid and so unnecessary.
You have a medical condition that needs medical attention. If they can't wrap their minds around that idea, then tell them to keep their noses out of your business -- if they can't be part of the solution, then stop being part of the problem.
Okay, okay ... yeah, that's a bit harsh. You should probably be a bit sensitive to the possibility that they see your treatment as a failure of theirs. Maybe you should keep that in mind first.
You know the truth of it better than us -- your condition may actually be, in part, their failure. I know my parents bear a great deal of the cause of what's wrong with me today. But -- my choice -- I've never told them so nor do I want to toss that weight onto the ones they carry for themselves. I don't want to be a part of THEIR problems, either.
As for the meds issue -- what the "etc."? Never been prescribed that one myself ;^)
300mg of zoloft? Good lord, why so much? I know that some docs will go over the cap of 200mg/d in some cases, but my own pdoc was extremely hesitant to do so.
Your mileage may vary, but in all the time I was on zoloft, it never did a thing to ease my panic attacks. No antidepressant alone has ever helped me manage my panic/anxiety. Klonopin works for me on most of my anxiety-related issues, and I'm finding that the boost Ritalin is giving my Nortriptyline is smoothing out what's left.
Keep in mind as well that while your meds may keep you on an even keel from average day to average day, there are going to be those "one of those days" that are going to push you to the limits (parental visits often being in that category!). Those days pass -- don't obsess over their ripples to the point they make you seasick all the time.
hang in there,
bob
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