Posted by Valley Girl on April 6, 2000, at 7:26:26
In reply to Re: What makes you HAPPY VALLEY GIRL??, posted by Joy on April 5, 2000, at 17:51:08
>I have been in therapy for most of my adult life. 30 plus years. I keep hearing the same thing over and over. I don't understand that happiness has to be hard work. Our parents selfishly put us here for their egotistical or plain stupid reasons and now we're stuck. Life sucks and then you die. But for me you don't die soon enough, you get dragged through hell for what purpose? So you can die! Believe me, I have researched mental health, physical and psychic (I am extremely intutitive and empathic). I thought this was my problem, because I react to everyones emotions around me. I hate knowing what other people think and what is going to happen to them. I have tried, through various methods, to get control of this "gift". Say what you want. I have been there and done that. I am just sick of it all. I am on meds. I have tried natural, homeopathic you name it. Nothing works for me. I am glad that others benefit from meds and positive attitudes. Depression, is what is here for me in this life. I guess I am suppose to learn something from it. Sorry for being such a downer. I can only see the yucky underside of the rock, not the beautiful shiney side!
I am not wallowing in self pity. I just want someone to understand that happiness is or contentment is a hard thing for some us even to understand.
Valley Girl
I am sure you have heard, that this is IT. This isn't a dress rehearsal..this is the only life we get..right now.If your med's. aren't working ---how important are YOU to YOU?
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> Get help. Read everything about your illness you can. Don't wait. Research. Find a thread of hope. Seek out some answers. Make it your purpose. Since you have had children,
> (I won't say do it for them.) having children is tough,raising them is tough,heck..life is tough sometimes.
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> You have obviously toughed it out through the years...can you try a little more? For you?
> Maybe I don't get it...as far as you are concerned...I haven't "walked in your shoes". But I do know that the human spirit wants the goodness,happiness.
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> So don't try to "force" yourself to be happy..find some answers as to why you are unhappy.
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