Posted by tina on May 3, 2000, at 21:31:03
In reply to Does Not Depressed = Happy?, posted by shar on May 3, 2000, at 21:12:15
> shar: I don't think I've been actually happy since I was a teenager. I, too, have grown accomstomed to the idea of just NOT being depressed means I MUST be happy. I haven't had a good up in a long time but the downs are less pit-like. Maybe we should expect more but is it possible? I too would rather be out of the pit but it doesn't mean that we should simply be satisfied with clinging to the grass surrounding the pit and holding on for our dear lives just inches away from falling in again. HAPPY- I don't remember what it's supposed to feel like. Just a thought.
I've been taking ad's for several years, and settled into Effexor XR 300 mg, Wellbutrin SR 200 mg, and 1 mg. of Klonopin at night. For about 2 years now. My doc wants me on 300 mg Wellbutrin, but I forget the afternoon dose.
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> So, every day now is not wrist-slittin' time. My head is above water. I am out of the black pit of despair. I function well enough, get to work and back home. I don't constantly think of the relief death would bring.
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> A definite improvement. Is this what I should expect? No feeling "light" or happy, or social, or pleasant, or anything? I feel those things now about 10% of the time. Otherwise, it's pretty bland.
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> When I tried Zoloft (long time ago) I felt "up" -- definitely up. Energetic, would talk to people, spontaneous, maybe even happy, and I constantly marveled at the fact that some people might feel this way all the time! Of course, that fizzled out after about 5 months. Stopped working, I was so disappointed.
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> Is this the experience of others? Is it reasonable to "expect" happiness, or just the absence of depression? I used a number of other ad's before settling on this combo, and it has the fewest side effects.
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> Bland is tons better than the Pit, I was just wondering what other people experienced.
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> Thank you,
> Shar
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