Posted by Cindy W on May 7, 2000, at 20:32:44
In reply to Vesper, what if....., posted by shar on May 7, 2000, at 16:08:17
> One thing that often stopped me from suicide was the question about whether I would be going to what I thought--peace, no pain, free at last.
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> What if, I thought, I end up .... well, you can fill in the blank with a hundred different things.
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> That nightmarish thought, plus using alcohol to numb the pain, helped keep me around enough years to find some meds that helped.
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> I am better now. You can get better.
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> My fear for you, if you did kill yourself, would be that it was even worse there than here.
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> You could stay around, ponder, talk, post, feel awful, draw, cry, drink, call someone, look out the window at the world, get mad, ...we will be here for you.
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> SharVesper, eventually you WILL stop being depressed...what would you like your life to be like then? Sometimes what keeps me going is realizing where I'm headed. I want to get along better with other people, make more friends, find love, stop hoarding (my OCD), learn more and more about the meaning of life.Each day, I try to take a small step towards all this. So what turns you on, in life? Hang in there and keep us posted!
poster:Cindy W
thread:32577
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