Posted by bob on May 25, 2000, at 15:08:01
In reply to Re: Hey!, posted by Noa on May 24, 2000, at 18:48:59
Hi Kathie and all y'all,
> ... So, every once in a while, I say to myself, "this feels better now. I am so relieved to be here in this better place. But it will be ok if I have a relapse into depression again. It does not have to mean that this better place is lost." The less I disown that awful despondent state I get into when depressed, the better able I think I will be able to be to experience that without losing all hope, and perhaps I can learn to ride those waves better and not have them spiral downward so intensely. I can't tell if I am explaining this clearly. Does anyone relate to this?
Crystal clear, to me. I've been listening too much to Melissa Etheridge's latest cd, with such cheerful lyrics as:
There comes a time we all know
There's a place that we must go
Into the soul, into the heart
Into the darkYeah, Kathie ... not so much more breakthroughs, but a better understanding of the breadth and depth of the last one. To make matters harder, the desipramine had me backsliding very, very slowly. I did finally pick up on it, tho, and I've been back on nortriptyline for three days ... and it feels like someone just yanked the curtains open for me. At the very least, I can get myself to sleep at a reasonable hour for the first time in weeks.
... so if you notice fewer posts from me for the present time, it's just because I'm catching up on my sleep ;^)
cheers,
bob
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