Posted by Naeemah Small on May 26, 2000, at 10:44:57
In reply to Re: How to deal with it, posted by Jennifer on May 25, 2000, at 1:23:35
I understand what you are going through, but have you ever asked your mates what they are going through or what they went through.
I do take care of myself, but for the four years we been taking care of each other.
Think about this, how would you feel if you mate just left you, with no reason at all. How would you feel?
I have been depressed, hurt and sad. I am trying to cope with the disorder. I have talk to med. doctors in my family and have join newsgroups.I have to take sleeping pills to just to sleep so I am not worry about him.
BOB, told me to leave him alone. And the woman to me to wait 5 years.
How would you feel if you mate did that to you?Listen, your mates do not have to stick with you through your illness, they can leave you and tell people that you are crazy and insane and that is why they left you.
There is a guy I know that left his wife and telling the world about how crazy his wife is.I just want to say, thank you for telling me what you go through,
but you need to hear it from the other side of coin.Greg mention that he sometimes do not speak to his wife about things.
Listen, you guys have family members and other people that love you, that want to understand, worry about you and care for you.
These people that care for you and also have been by your side, you should show them honor.
Because one thing you forget to tell me, how did they deal with you!
How many times they cried thinking it was their fault, how many times they thought about leaving you,
how many pills they have to take to function normally?Yes, you are going through alot and I understand, but we go through something too.
My boyfriend and I were suppose to get married. He is my soul mate, I know if he was well, we would have gotten married.
Know I can not even go to a wedding because it makes me depressed and I think about him.
I wonder if he is ok. He even told me to forget about him or anything like that. He just left. I know where he works, but he moved and I do not have his new address.
He is not at work. I sent postcards to cheer him up.Even if we did not get married, I still want to be there for him.
I wondered if he is on the street, if he is taking his pills, if he is seeing the doctor,
and what is he doing now. I met him before the disorder that is why I knew something was wrong.You have to understand where I am comming from. I have been taking sleeping pills, working long hours, back in college and hang olut with myself.
My best friend lives out east, so I just talk to her.Some of my other friends that know I boyfriend and also knows his disorder, have thought that I was the cause of it.
They think he crazy and might fun of it. They also think that I only like crazy people.If I wanted to get back in to a relationship, I am scared beacuse I do not know if the person that I am dating will come down with a mental disorder.
Sometimes I cried myself asleep and myself why. Some people in my family do not know about his disoder because if they did, they will make fun of it or think that I am strange.
I have told them I am delaying the wedding because of my personal issuses. I have told them that, I do not think should get married now because I am too young.This is my life and the other side of the coin.
poster:Naeemah Small
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