Posted by Rach on June 3, 2000, at 3:09:05
Hi everyone,
I stumbled across this site when doing a search for more info on zoloft. Just thought I had better introduce myself and tell my story.I'm 19, a uni student and from Australia. I was prescribed zoloft over a year ago now after about 4 years of obvious insomnia (and less obvious depression). I took one tablet and then refused to believe I was depressed. I flushed the other tablets, and continued on my merry way of constant sleepless nights and incessant illness. At the start of this year, I had two operations to try to correct all my illness problems, but it seemed to do little good. I was finally beginning to believe I was depressed. Then one morning, I couldn't get out of bed. I missed a uni exam, and several other vital and compulsory classes. I spent the next two days in bed, and then two days after that in my room (but I did manage to get out of bed). I had been not turning up to my part time job, and hadn't attended uni lectures for over two months. I was suffering, and felt like I was drowning, constantly battling to keep my nose above the waves crashing around me. I was lazy, lost all interest in anything I had ever enjoyed. I was gorging on food. All I wanted from my life was to live in my bed and eat chocolate. I wanted no part of the outside world.
Then I got really sick of being in constant pity for myself, and I could see how miserable my life had become. I didn't want to be this pathetic shadow of myself. I went and saw a uni counsellor, who referred me to a doctor she works in conjunction with. I now see both of them once or twice a week (I'm very lucky in that my visits are free for me - the uni pays the costs), and was prescribed zoloft again about 3 weeks ago. Things are getting a bit easier, although things still are a constant struggle. It becomes such an effort sometimes to simply get dressed or have breakfast. I quit my job, and my uni work is suffering. I have exams next week, and I'm afraid I'm going to fail. I'm pushing myself and trying to be strong...I just need to remember what I am trying to achieve, and that is to regain control of my life, and live on my terms, to live the way I want.
I wish you all the best in your lives.
Rach
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