Posted by me-but-not-me on June 6, 2000, at 3:57:53
In reply to Re: Me-but-not-Me: An Update, Perhaps?, posted by quilter on June 6, 2000, at 1:28:57
Hi Shar, Quilter, and Noa- (wherever you are, we will miss your presence here)
I completely missed this thread. Got so off-track above...
Well, I have posted a sort-of update below. I have decided to explore voluntary hospitalization, now that my old suicidal urges have surfaced again. It's not acute suicidal danger, more of an option that I hold close if this all gets to be too much. I realize it's time for me to seek help when that happens.
I think the sordid state of this apartment was the last straw, it really reflects the disarray that I harbor within. I am having trouble taking care of myself and just recently realized how far I have 'fallen'. Thanks to the posts and support here, and the support I am finding I have around me that I didn't know existed, the idea of hospitalization is not as scary- and now seems like the right time to pursue help.
I will keep you posted on what happens, I think I am going to the hospital in the morning (if I can get up - it is so late now and I still can't sleep). Thank you all for caring :)
-mbnm
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