Posted by Kath on June 7, 2000, at 14:19:32
In reply to Re: having a so/so day-supplemental, posted by Tina1 on June 7, 2000, at 9:20:52
Hi Tina - I'm so sorry to hear about your Aunt's passing away. Also, I didn't realize you had pneumonia. I hope you're doing better & that the shoulder & back are healing well.
I find it hard to have the time to read all the new posts - especially if I miss a day or so, so I feel I get out-of-touch with things. Thanks for the words about the feelings diary. I think I can use it as a good tool. I'm getting pretty good at being more honest with myself & others; at one time, I might have written what I thought the doc wanted to hear or expected to hear, but not now.
My son's still got the flu. Has been in bed since he came home from school on Monday afternoon. Geez - this'll be the longest time he's gone without getting high in a very long time! Maybe it'll be super-good for him to continue to be sick for awhile yet! Heh heh.
Actually, it's felt sort of nice to be taking care of him. I read to him for awhile today; he didn't have enough energy to read but said he'd continue himself once he gets better. He thought the book was "awesome" ("Birds of Prey" by Wilbur Smith - a pirate novel that I read & loved.)
I'm very pleased that I'm now taking 20 mg of Celexa with no side effects. It's still not working as amazingly as the first 3 days, but hopefully it'll kick in again, or maybe the dose will have to be higher.
Take care of yourself - and you ARE a gem, I think!!
Kath
> In the above post I asked "Iwonder what else can go wrong this week?" Well, talk about counting your chickens. I just found out that my aunt passed away late last night. Nothing more this week -- Okay "cosmic gods" I've had enough for now thanks.
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> > Going back on meds today. A little scared of the side effects and/or reaction. I was feeling better for a few days being off all meds but now that the full washout period is over I'm back to my old depressing self again. The pneumonia is getting better my the day but I have also just sprained my right shoulder and lat(back) and I'm taking advil every 4 hours to deal with the pain. Coughing feels like spikes digging into me on th right side. I know, I'm whining but what's babble for if not to whine a little right? Wonder what else can go wrong this week, geez! A couple of emotional issues that are keeping me up nights but I think they'll sort themselves out. Had two people tell me I was a gem yesterday so that goes a long way toward improving the mood too. I hope everyone has a good day out there. Hugs all around---Tina
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> > > Hey Kath, Glad to hear that the meds are working. Step in the right direction huh? I'm sorry your son is sick but you are right about it being better than getting high. Feelings diaries can be a tricky business. You can end up re-reading the things you write down and critiquing yourself. My only advice there is be honest with yourself. Don't write what you think your pdoc wants to hear, dig deep and really be honest. It can cause you pain, relieve stress and map out patterns but I think it can be a very helpful tool for your recovery. Good luck with it and keep in touch ok. Don't know what we can do about Kathy. I've sent her some e-mails and had no answer, it worries me a lot. Take care and I hope your son feels better soon. Thanks for keeping me up to date.--hugs, Tina
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> > > Hi Tina - I'm assuming you're Tinal? I hope you're feeling better. I'm upping my Celexa to 20 mg from 15. Three days at 15 & no side effects. I'm pleased! Today my 16-yr-old has the flu & is "sick-in-bed", vomitting, etc. It's funny; I'd rather empty buckets than see his main activity & interest in life be getting stoned!
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> > > > I'm feeling way more positive; saw my psych (is that what pdoc means?) today & I think I'm going to be able to do some really good work with him. He wants me to keep a "feelings diary" - enter any major feelings three times a day. My big deal is being able to feel anger (or NOT being able to feel anger). I usually feel it for a second, find it's way too scarey & talk myself out of feeling it. My "committee" puts forth all kinds of reasons why the other person might have done; said what they did, etc. etc. & meanwhile my anger goes somewhere else - seems invalid.
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> > > > I'm also afraid of others' anger. I guess anger is a big issue & I feel really optimistic about facing this and working on it.
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> > > > Take care; thinking about you. Kath
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> > > > ps - I'm worried about Kathy too.
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> > > > > Hi guys, just wanted to vent a little, hope you don't mind. I'm having a sh***y day today. My pulse rate won't slow down and my heart is pounding in my ears. Not feeling particularly anxious or panicky but I can't slow down this heart rate. What is causing it, I don't know but it's damn uncomfortable. Thanks for listening Love y'all---Tina
> > > > > How goes your day Noa, Judith, Kathie, kath et al....? Still nothing from Kathy I see, getting seriously worried now.
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