Posted by Lynn B on June 15, 2000, at 17:11:38
This board seems to be a beacon for those in need of support and encouragement. I find myself reading the posts here and wanting to extend my empathy and become a part of this caring network. Depression is such a distorting disease. We need to be reminded by others that what we feel is not who we are. Our brains our not our souls. (It took me a while before I got over that particular stigma)
So, I hope that a few of you fine souls can share some wisdom with me. I am in my mid-thirties, and after important years of being home with my kids, I feel another pull at my heart. Maybe its because of the depression and how it makes you so aware of suffering, but I feel that we do not go through things for nothing. This human experience has given me understanding. I thought that I could become a Nurse and give back mercy to others. The problem is that I am also aware that I have limitations. This is a very stressul job and I wonder if I have what it takes to walk away and not let what I do consume me, or cause a relapse in my depression.
Being a mother is my primary role in life. But I took on this role very young, before I had developed myself. What you leave undone you are destined to revisit. I don't want to ignore what feels like a calling. I just want to be realistic in what I'm emotionally capable of taking on. I'm just starting college. Any advise? Lynn
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