Posted by SueG on July 10, 2000, at 1:06:20
In reply to Re:augment?ADD?SueG,Janice,CarolAnn,Sarah,Renee?, posted by KarenB on July 9, 2000, at 23:50:21
> Wow, does this sound like ADD, without hyperactivity and the resulting depression from a lifetime of misdiagnoses, or what??Well, funny thing is, that my therapist (she is not a psychiatrist, but a psychologist experienced in eating disorders - which is why i am seeing her), doesn't think that i am depressed. I filled out a Beck Depression questionnaire and only came up with "mild" depression. However, my symptoms were: insomnia (couldn't fall asleep, just thinking random thoughts at night and couldn't relax), then waking sometimes 5 or 6 times each night, sad mood (yet sometimes i was happy also, but it was like something was missing, I was empty). When i was sad, it was like there wasn't any hope, nothing to look forward to and I wasn't living, I was just being. I was very sensitive to criticism or anything i remotely saw as criticism. I would over-react at the stupidest things. I would then get extremely upset with myself for being so emotional. Concentration was a big one with me too. I had trouble just doing my work, i wasn't interested, i was bored, it would take me forever to do something. I would just sit here and play on the internet most times. When I read a book I often have trouble with the info not sinking in. I will read the same pages over and over without it making sense. I can be in a meeting and people are talking - I'll be thinking about something completely different, realise it, and think if I was asked a question, that i would have no idea what they were talking about. Obviously i have trouble retaining information (this could be an ADD symptom? I'm about to read the info you suggested after i finish this). When i am watching a movie, or a tv show, I can appear to be watching it, but my mind wanders - next thing i realise i don't know what's going on. The worst thing is when my husband says "what did he say?" (on the movie) and I have to say I don't know!! (I pretend i didn't hear it!).
Also when i go walking with my mother, she talks to me and i just zone out and i say "mmm", "yeah" etc, but i realise after she's said it, i have no idea what she was on about! The awful thing is though, that i'm not particularly interested in what she is saying.
> Have you had problems getting to bed at night but then can't seem to drag yourself out of bed in the morning, YOUR WHOLE LIFE?Yes, i tend to be a person who would rather stay up late at night and sleep late in the morning. I suppose i am getting into the habit of getting up early in the mornings but it is still a struggle. When i was about 10-18 (at school) I would sleep on the weekends and holidays sometimes until early afternoon. I don't do this anymore, thankfully! I rarely feel like i am wide awake though, always feel "foggy" and that my mind is unclear (the prozac seems to be helping).
When i was young (up to 13) I used to love school, and i would get really good grades. But after that, it started to go downhill, I lost all interest and couldn't be bothered with it. I never knew what i wanted to be, however, i had the ability.
Sometimes I forget things that I just started i.e. i turned the iron on last night, then while waiting for it to warm up, I started doing something else in the kitchen and completely forgot about the ironing. Is that what you mean? I have this little notebook that i carry with me everywhere that is my saviour - whenever i think of anything that i have to do, i write it on the appropriate page so i don't forget to do it.
I have never ever thought of ADD as a possibility - in fact i don't know anything about it really. Do you think that prozac would help me at all if this was the case? i.e. have seen some improvements with it.
Other examples i can give you would be:
I start projects all enthused but in about 2 weeks the novelty/excitement wears off and i just let them go. i.e. I started a correspondence course in fitness and in travel, and both of these fell by the wayside. It's like i lose track and just can't get back on. I bought myself a horse one time (my 2nd horse) and the novelty wore off that too, and i ended up selling her within a few months. All these things end up costing me money. The trouble is, i am also thinking of relocating to another State, however, i'm worried that if we go, the novelty might wear off that too, and i'll wish we never did. I just hate doubting myself all the time. I feel like i don't want anything bad enough or aren't interested enough in things to go through with them. It scares me.> My change in diagnosis from Major Depression, to Bipolar Disorder to ADD, innattentive type without hyperactivity has certainly been a revelation to me.<
What meds had you tried previously and did they help at all?
Hey, thanks a lot for that post, I'm intrigued now. Please reply to this when you get a chance. Also anyone else who has any thoughts.
Sue.
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