Posted by Kath on July 18, 2000, at 9:51:47
In reply to Re: WHY???????(long), posted by kellyR. on July 17, 2000, at 21:31:00
> > Wow, Kelly. What a tragedy.
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> > Thank you for telling us.
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> > Though I know it is normal to feel like you could have done something to save him, even though you couldn't, I am going to say this anyway:YOU COULDN'T. He apparently had planned to get himself killed. It sounds like it had nothing to do with your response to him on the phone.
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> > It is so sad that you had to endure so much pain.
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> thank you all for caring,i keep telling myself that it wasn't my doing but it sometimes hard to beleive myself.my dr. keeps asking me to tell him about the day he died,i think he's trying to make be beleive that it wasn't my fault.i think about him alote around this time,what it would of been like if he was still alive,he never got to see me get married,see any of my kids,& see that my mother is now sober for 10yrs. now.i see my dr. this thursday so i geuss that well be talking about this again.I'm so srewed up that i've been seeing this dr. now for 4 1/2 yrs & still going everyother week.but i shouldn't complain he is helping.
Hi Kelly - Thx so much for posting again. My Mom died at 54 of breast cancer & my Dad died at 56 a couple of years later of silicosis (he worked where they made Old Dutch Cleanser & they use silica powder in that & it got in his lungs & stayed there). Although I do not have the terrible situation of them having killed themselves, I do relate to the grief about them not seeing me grow up & not getting to see my children & also my children not having met their grandparents on my side of the family. It isn't something that really goes away. You have, however, found a doctor who you like & who is helping you & that is wonderful. Congrats for taking care of yourself in this way!!! Who cares how long it takes! I went to a psychiatrist for 3 years while I was heading towards & going through the divorce from my first husband. Our healing takes its own time; be gentle with yourself.
You're in my thoughts & prayers. I'm away 'til Friday; will check in then to see if you've posted again.Warm thoughts, Kath
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