Posted by jzp on July 27, 2000, at 17:54:42
In reply to Re: serzone, manic (not yet at least), posted by Iden on July 27, 2000, at 12:21:55
(responding to Iden's dialogue-type response)
> *For most people, [break-ups, moves] are all serious life changes. Any one of these can trigger depression in vulnerable people.
I guess I'm also just kind of relieved. It's been heading this direction for quite a long time. I just wasn't up to dealing with what needed to be done. Also, it's not a nasty and vituperative break-up. It's more like "huh, somehow we ended up just friends. let's stop trying to squish our friendship into this romantic mold, because it's jut not going to fit." So we're actually getting along better than we were before we made the fateful decision. My major problem is that I have been unemployed for the better part of the last year, and have no money, so I have to grovel to my parents for enough funds to do the move. At least Tucson is a very cheap place to live.
> *........Even small things can be a hassle when depressed but when feeling better, I find that I just attend to them and then seek the next thing to be done. When down, I just feel that I can never ever catch up on all that needs to be done and tend to have the belief that life will always be that way. It is a belief at that time that there is no way out and that it won't change. When one feels that there is no way out, that adds to depression. I try to remind myself that what I am feeling at any particular moment isn't necessarily how I will feel long term, or the next day, or the next week.I can so relate to this. Even now, it's hard to get out of that mode of thinking. It's like cleaning the house grew to be such a monumental task in my mind when I was still really depressed, that even now that I have more energy, it's still sort of daunting. I guess that probably also has to do with the fact that I'm better than I was, but not all better. How are you doing with this now?
> *I get the pressure in my head feeling and slightly woozy feeling most all the time. It is a small price to pay if it continues AND Serzone really kicks in. I just finished 7 days of 100 mg and 100 mg and this morning went up to 125 mg and may do that twice a day for another week or so. Started Serzone 72 days ago. I will continue upward until I feel reasonably good or until the side effects are just too much for me and don't improve with time.How is the increased dose working for you? I have to say that I'm terrible at identifying side effects-- I tend to think that I'm making them up. And the information they give you about the drug seems to have very little bearing on the actual experience of being on it. I guess it's just that everyone is affected in such different ways.
Oh, and the sleep thing. It's just that I've been having a hard time falling asleep-- sort of that sensation of the hamster in my head running faster and faster on his little wheel, and then dropping from exhaustion. Once I'm asleep, I'm fine. And I do seem to have had slightly more vivid dreams lately, which is kind of nice.-Jannette
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