Posted by tdaneen on July 28, 2000, at 12:46:03
In reply to Re: topomax? » tdaneen, posted by shellie on July 28, 2000, at 12:06:16
I am an up & downer. I augment with the cytomel (a thyroid med) and the methylphenid which is just another name for ritalin.
I was thinking about the 'ole dirt nap last week (bad BAD week), but I have a simply beautiful daughter which (and I know you will follow this weird train of thought) is a reason TO and TO NOT at the same time. But we know that when we are close to NORMAL, well, as close to normal as we are able to get, being as super cool and special as we are... I know, and YOU know that we do have things to live for.
You know what? And this isn't just fluf. I believe this (right now, I'm not depressed, remind me later, ok, when I am depressed because it is very VERY TRUE!!!) Any one of us here at PB is a person who has much more inner strength than most. We have to get up each day,every day. Knowing that we walk a tight rope. Can I balance today, or is the chasm going to get me today? How long before I can climb my way out this time? Do I have the strength do this again? You don't think you do.
But you do.
You are SO, SO STRONG!! You fight every day. You have a career that still gives you joy. You have a career that gives people lovely memories to pass through their families. What a treasure. You are a treasure. Never forget that.You are doing the right thing. You are actively seeking and getting help. You are getting support. You are venting and confirming that NO you are NOT along, it is not just you. What you have is a mood disorder. It is a physical (not a mental) disease. It can be treated. It just takes time (sometimes a lot of time...this is said with a sly smile and a wink ;^)
Girl! Don't think of it as YOU failing the trial. I think the best thing you are doing is to research about your condition. Keep yourself informed about treatments, side effects, whatever. I hope that this works well for you. If not, then we keep up the search. REMEMBER: STRONG, EVERY DAY, That's you.
I hope I haven't yammered on WAYYYYYY too much.Oh, yes I did have some tummy trouble, so I made sure to eat something starchy with it (no, that does NOT mean a whole plate of pasta, or a loaf of bread) KIDDING!!
Good lord! Can I talk or what??!!?!
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