Posted by Ty on September 20, 2000, at 11:49:46
I am twenty two years old and have no history of mental illness. I am now suffering from severe anxiety and obsessive thoughts about the meaning and reasons for existence. Not a despair in regards to my own life, but an obsession with the reason we are all here existing. The reason this self destructive behavior began is known to me and before this traumatic experience happened, I was a relatively stress-free, happy-go-lucky person. A little overly introspective perhaps but generally happy. The anxiety began with an occurance that convinced me my life as I knew it would soon be over(not physically), followed by four months of isolation from any form of support system in a foreign country. I have been back home for over a month now and dealt as best I can with the situation and it has proven not as threatening as the four months alone of internalizing made it seem. The anxiety has not eased however. I fear the true motivations behind human nature and am in constant obsession with the fact that no one understands exactly why we are here. I know this is senseless, self-defeating and unhealthy. Anyway, in my search across the internet for information on mental health, I stumbled across this page. Does anyone know about post traumatic stress? I would prefer to avoid drugs but the anxiety is completely debilitating. Where should I start for seeking help, or at least determining whether I need it? Thanks to anyone who might have a suggestion.
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