Posted by shellie on October 18, 2000, at 14:35:06
In reply to Re: reply to: Sorry, but I dunno..., posted by tdaneen on October 18, 2000, at 14:11:06
> What you said about your pain struck a nerve with me. It is my protector. It is what keeps me safe, leery of others who want to hurt me. When I am alone it is there, It is always there. It has always been there.> I only came to this conclusion recently. I was in group, and I was asked point blank by my group leader why I was afraid to let go of my pain. I realized that I would no longer know who I would be.
> The group thought that this would be a super opportunity to recreate a new "better" person. I gently reminded them that I could also screw that one up worse than I did the first one.
>Tdanneen, I was reminded of something when I read your post. I experience a lot of my depression as physical and in my chest. Several years ago I was working with a body therapist and in stages she was working on the area across my upper chest. At some point you could literally feel the difference in the area which she had worked on and the areas she had not yet reached. You could push in on that area and there was space. It didn't hurt but it didn't feel right, it was too empty.
I have little kids inside (alters/ego states, whatever) who are much better at imagery than I am and one of them wanted to put soil and plant flowers there to fill the space. And that seemed to do the trick with the emptiness.
So I was thinking, if you approached the pain very very slowly and exchanged something else little by little for small parts of the pain, it might be less scary for you. To not look at it as giving it all up at the same time, so that instead of a new person, you would be an evolving person.
for what it's worth,
Shellie
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