Posted by noa on October 29, 2000, at 10:14:41
In reply to Re: Medicines For Life, posted by R.Anne on October 28, 2000, at 19:10:57
My acceptance of this is at its most stable right now, but the doubts can resurface sometimes--support really does help.
I am finding that accepting the reality of how chronic my depression has been has been a necessary component of recovery. I used to flee from each episode, hoping to put all depression behind me and start fresh, etc. But this had me trying so hard to be totally depression-free, which caused me to overreact to any low moods, and hate that part of myself, to kind of split myself into two--depressed me (rejected) and not-depressed me (longed for). Now, I am trying to be more realistic, and it actually helps keep things more even, so I don't have to spiral downward so quickly with each low mood, nor do I have to work so hard to be vigilant in keeping myself out of any emotional range of existence, just to avoid getting depressed.
I don't know if this makes sense. It does to me, but explaining it can be hard.
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