Posted by Jeremy on March 6, 2001, at 19:39:24
In reply to Re: Wanting to Die, posted by AmyM on March 6, 2001, at 18:55:54
Jason,
First of all good for you for getting your feelings out. That is the hardest step of all. I remember going through the same thing you are currently experiencing now, about a year ago.
When I was in "the state" I had to keep my parents and friends in my mind constantly. I had to remind myself that I AM a good person, and I DO mean something to the people and world around me. I had to remember that we were all put here for a purpose. I can tell you my friend, that purpose is not to give up and roll over on life. I still have to remind myself of these things every now and again.
I know it sounds impossible, and hate to sound so gruff, but you must refocus on something and get the suicidal feeling out of your head. Talk to someone. If you have done that, talk to someone else. People will listen. Don't be ashamed of how you feel. I know I was for awhile, and all that did was add fuel to the fire.
Don't feel that you are alone. Look at all of the faceless strangers that are here for you. Just think about the people in your life that know you, and what they might be able to offer.
Try and do whatever you can to improve your view on life.
I don't know if any of this makes any sense, but I hope that there is something in here that might help you realize that you are not the only one, and that life is worth living.Peace,
Jeremy
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> > I am at my end. To affraid to live, to affraid to die. I cannot snap out of this lonliness and depression. The days are to agonizing to go on. I have tried all kinds of meds, nothing seems to help my eternal fog, lonliness, despair. The thought of another day terrifies me. I have just begun with another therapist as if its gonna help. I just can't change my attitude and be possitive. I just want to go to sleep forever. My suicidal thinking is extreme. Every moment I am awake I think of death, a way out. Its just inbearable. I am living in hell with the world around me going on, enjoying, playing, making sense. There is this part of me that just wants to give up. Its a ruthless addictive aspect to myself that keeps me in bed, keeps me from doing anything. I am so afraid to die, so afraid to live.
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